Suffering wife seeks support as her marriage (and life) gets put back together

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I ask myself that very same question also every time I feel down. I don't know if they'll ever go away (as much as I'd like them to); my inner cynic doesn't think that they ever will. I think they'll just get farther and farther in between. I agree with what you said about self-care; it's of the utmost importance. I need to utilize other self-care methods since my go-to self-care activity (knitting) is challenging to do right now due to the neuropathy in my hands. One day at a time, indeed.

 

Thanks for the kind words and advice, @Ikindaknew. I really appreciate it! I have a tendency to be too hard on myself. My hubby (@Garnadaan) has truly been a champ throughout everything on both the PMO and cancer fronts. I wish it wasn't so difficult to see that when I have a "bad day"! It feels like when I have a bad day my brain develops blinders that block all the good stuff and magnify the negative stuff. Quite frustrating!

 

Update time, I suppose. Not much has happened since I updated last....still healing from chemo and going to A LOT of doctors appointments. March has been the month of doctor appointments, sheesh. My birthday happened in there somewhere too. I've had 11 medical appointments this month...such is the life of a cancer patient. Consultations with radiation oncologists to discuss radiation treatment that'll occur post-surgery, meetings with my surgeon (and a plastic surgeon) to discuss my upcoming surgery, dentist visits to have my teeth cleaned (and a cavity filled...chemo can cause dry mouth, which has the potential to royally mess up your teeth and gums), and various imaging tests. Oof.

Aside from all the doctor visits I've been continuing to enjoy the downtime. Still spending as much time as possible outside the house and enjoying being out in the world (as opposed to being holed up in the apartment with nothing but Netflix to keep me company). Garnadaan and I picked up a new video game, Tom Clancy's The Division, and have been playing it together. It's really fun! We've also been playing Magic: the Gathering together also...we picked it back up now that I'm well enough to concentrate on it and strategize effectively! In addition to gaming I've been doing more knitting. I started a hat for me to wear now that weather has warmed up a bit. My hair is slowly growing back but hats are still a must for me.

Stay strong everyone.

 

Wow, it's been a LONG time since I posted! Holy moley. Things have been trucking along on the treatment front...my surgery occurred on April 19th. Everything went smoothly and I've been healing up. The physical healing is going well...emotionally I'm a bit of a wreck over the loss of my breast (which is to be expected). I'm not completely flat on the operated side (courtesy of an implant that serves as a placeholder until I'm able to undergo the reconstruction I want to have done - gotta wait until radiation is completed) but I'm a bit lopsided. The lopsidedness was something I was totally expecting and was not surprised about, the inevitable emotional toll is just happening. I'm just taking things one day at a time.

Radiation is going to start some time within the next few weeks...when it does I'll be doing it 5 days a week for 6 weeks. Not worried about it; it'll be a piece of cake compared to chemo and surgery!