90 Days - JOIN ME

@Denzel889 - glad you are here - stay strong! I read your post in the forums and found it very motivating, thank you.

I'm coming up on day 18 and I feel pretty solid. I don't see any opportunities coming up where I'll be able to fap (all porn sites are blocked and only my spouse can enter the password). Sure, I could use my phone or my tablet, but I never have before. I will have to put some sort of controls on those too I suppose, just in case.

I'm definitely working through some motivation challenges. It's one of those situations where I know what I need to do, but I am not actually doing it. At least I am aware of it.

To any Canadians who may be here - Happy Thanksgiving!

Have a great day, folks.

 

Coming up on 20 days. Over the last couple of days, I hardly thought about porn, not near as much as I used to.

For those who are in this thread, post updates, who cares if you fell off, get right back on and get moving forward. I have relapsed a few times on this journey - I made it two weeks the first time (that was HARD, especially after watching it for almost 20 years!), then I got to 70 days over the summer. 70 DAYS. Like what the hell, right? Maybe I got cocky, over confident, I just remember the urge hit me out of nowhere and caught me at the worst possible time. I felt horrible for the next few days...

About a week later, I decided to try again. I made it to 32 days that time.

This time around, I told my spouse about everything and installed k-9 on my PC. Only she knows the password. If I want porn now, I will have to watch it somewhere outside my home and that will be pretty difficult to do. I am comfortable in my home and that is why being home alone has always been a trigger for me. I always lived with the idea that I was in control. If you want to beat this addiction once and for all, I feel like you have to surrender to the idea that you are not in control and you do need to take measures to eliminate your triggers. Don't be so naive and believe you will always be in control of your emotions 24/7. You won't.

It comes down to how bad do you want it.

If you've relapsed and were on this thread, then own it, come back, and try, try again. It's worth it.

 

This thread has been really quiet as of late! Everyone seems to kind of dropped off. Oh well, I will press on. I am approaching day 23 and am feeling really good so far. Hard to believe in just 7 days I'll be one third of the way through the journey.

Regardless of where you're at, I hope you are all doing well.

 

Thanks for the video share!

Almost at the 30 day checkpoint. I feel really good. I've had a few urges but nothing I couldn't handle. I'm focusing a lot on writing, meditation, and exercise.

This may sound weird, but I've started taking cold showers every morning for 5 minutes. I've been doing it for the past couple of weeks now and I find it really helps with my mood and helps with my stress and sudden depression.

Overall, it feels great to not have to be living this double life of having this secret addiction that plays a big part of my life and was a part of my identity. I still have a ways to go, but I feel stronger every day.

Everyone have a great day!

 

Coming up on 30 days. Almost a third of the way through. 4 days until the last time I relapsed (32 days). It's not even on my mind at all. I feel great. Those following the thread, I don't care if you're on day 1 again and again, man up and post here and start all over again. You're not alone!

 

Alcohol is the biggest trigger for me. I've learned I need to be very careful about when and where I drink. If I'm alone, I'm done for!

One day at a time, stick with it and don't give up.