The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

i ve always beem depressed after edging off..its more like doing M then stopping because i could think straigt at the last moment

 

yep and i m on it

 

Checking in day 10, no PMO!

 

Hey mate, trying to escape reality is a massive one and it has been my greatest trigger historically. I would even go as far as to say that it's the real addiction (at least for me).

I think the key is identifying ways you can consistently break the thought pattern when it hits. There are always things we can do that will break the state we are in and identifying what works for you is the best. For me it's getting out of the house early in the morning, being mindful about when I get tendencies to overeat and shutting of electronics in the evenings.

 

I just want to say, that I will not be able to check-in regularly because tomorrow I will start a 3 week trip around Indonesia with a couple friends which I look forward to. I wish everyone the best and once i'm back or need help again I now where to find recovery from P addiction

 

Thanks, man. Appreciate it.

 

Relapsed again, Starting over with the challenge Day 0/90 No PMO

 

Checking in. No PMO.

 

Guys, I just relapsed.
Starting over gain. Wasted 45 days of soberness. ;(

 

Checking in day 11 no PMO.

 

Hey glnb8, sorry to hear that but we've all been there and it's a natural part of the process. Now you need to remember the following:

You do NOT start over from zero and you have NOT "wasted 45 days of soberness". This journey is not about any one streak, it's about consistency, learning from our mistakes and always getting back up.

So what triggered/caused your relapse? Was it the escaping of reality that we were talking about before?

And more importantly, what can you do to remember this relapse pattern and make a plan to never repeat it? I have a whiteboard in my room where I add every relapse in 2019 and what triggered them. It currently reads:

Being hungover (1)
Free, unplanned day at home with nothing to do (1)
Relapse shame, day after (1)
Escaping reality/emotional stress (3)

Each time I've had a relapse, I make a plan to never be in that situation again and it's really working well.

 

Relapsed on Valentine's day. Thinking about ex.

 

Checking in Day 1/90 Challenge after relapse, need to start off strong get my streak back.

 

Thanks, man.
Your right. Perhaps I was just expecting too much from myself in this NoFap.
And yes, it was about escaping reality that has made me do it. I give in to the temptation because I feel overwhelmed by my current situation and tried to escape. But no one can escape reality anyway, I just thought I could at least for a while and relapsed.
It's funny because when I brought to face reality again and the situations I was really in, I realized that it wasn't so bad after all. That all my efforts to escape were not only for naught, but also unnecessary.
Well, that too made me feel bad about the relapsed but of course I have to move on.

 

Check in btw,
Day 1 of 90.