Suicide

Learned that a friend of a young man I know committed suicide. He's only 29 years old and already knows 3 friends who have committed suicide.
I am older, but have had suicidal thoughts and depression since childhood. Even today I fight against such thoughts and feelings but I don't give in.
I realize that I can take that determination to not end my own life and apply it to overcoming my PMO addiction.
Stay strong and focused on the struggle because recovery is possible.
In the end, it will be better. If it's not better, then it's not the end.
Hang in there everybody!

 

find something to read
https://www.fhu.com/roys_articles.html

 

what do you like doing?

 

your emotions will come back, have you looked at a lot of porn? I did, and porn had a way of making me feel emotionless, no love. but all that positive feelings came back. then I started looking at p-subs. now I am not feeling as good again, so now, I am re starting a 90 day reboot. it is just as hard as the first time.

 

check out some of those articals I sent you, on that link. it is not the average self help reading material.

 

mab

maybe porn has little to do with your feelings maybe it is something else. sorry if I missed judged.

 

yeah, porn can do that to a person. to me it did. since I got back into the daily routing of looking at p-subs. so now I can not even masturbate. for 90 days. want to heal my brain again. then I can masturbate, with out porn or porn substitutes.

 

no worries.

 

Well think about this..you dont want to hurt them by sharing your dark side but how would they feel when you'll be gone? Will that do them any good...how would they feel when they realize who they thought will surpass them and who'll achieve what they couldn't killed himself/others over such trivial matters!
And you're so young so much to face and fight!Do you want to give up that easy?I would recommend going to some community meetings where you'll hear the stories of people who have few days to live still struggling to live a day longer! Addicts who were once scholars in reputed schools/colleges who messed up the major part of their life and lost everything including loved ones they have still fighting for whats left in them..to regain the control they've lost...to rediscover themselves!
Sorry to be harsh...but stop whining and acting like a spoiled brat!Life and reality are like a cement floor left it smash the bones of your imagination as hard it can because after you heal you will be much stronger!
If you want something do efforts start changing bit by bit..universe will open gateways for you once you put your mind to it...if you keep trying you'll make progress bit by bit down the road to somewhere that'll make you someone that you would be proud of.
So face yourself towards life and hope instead of depression,darkness and negativity and if you want to improve and want something...improve yourself,do efforts!Fight the life!

 

Watch "Pursuit of Happiness" Will Smith. Great movie