Post acute withdrawal and my symptoms. Can you relate?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by DarkSektur, Mar 30, 2018.

  1. whoami33

    whoami33 Fapstronaut

    My libido returned for more than a few days now but dont know if it would persist or not.
     
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  2. TimeToChange59837

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    No libido but my memory is slowly improving
     
  3. TimeToChange59837

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    Maybe am I’m flatline. Actually I think I am been in it ever since day 6, so no real urges
     
  4. bken

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    Has anyone else noticed way better dream recall? This is the one thing that has absolutely convinced me of how dangerous porn/masturbation really is. Once you realize it has affected your sleep, you know it's really, really bad.
     
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  5. Big Lebowski

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    I have really vivid dreams now and again. I do dream a lot more in general and also my sleep is a lot better. I had a rough patch of sleep the beginning this month. There was one weekend where I didn't even get a sleep for two days in a row and two-three hours sleep the next day.
     
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  6. Big Lebowski

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    I think real kicking libido must be one of the last things that comes back to you when you are recovered from PAWS.
     
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  7. whoami33

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    Can you tell us How was your PMO habit. How old are you(approximately and how many years you used how intense and etc,...) ?
     
  8. Big Lebowski

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    Started PMO age 13. Use increased by 14/15 at least once a day if I can remember 16-19 was three times a day, 19-25 started nofap many streaks but ultimately relapsed many, many times. I only see benefits consistently when not using porn at all. Im 25
     
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  9. Big Lebowski

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    It seems like I did the damage when I was 16-19 and then inevitably kept myself in it by relapsing ever since.
     
  10. whoami33

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    It seems we have nearly same stories, but i Didn’t pmo 3 times per day for extended time like 3 years,
     
  11. whoami33

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    Now how is your motivation, concentration, decision making and having and pursuing Your goals ?
     
  12. Big Lebowski

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    Slowly things are getting better mate. Don't expect results overnight with this because that ain't the case. I'd say for the first 9-11 months was constant nagging feeling of shit. I had head tension for over 340 days mate. That now has cleared for the time being or is much less noticeable. Concentration and focous a little bit better but not enough to read a book and get distracted. Decision making has been fucking terrible over the years can't really never had no confidence with it i'll let you know when that gets better. I don't know what my goals or ambitions are really I feel i'm going through an identity crisis at the moment. All I know is i'd like to be successful financially and happy and secure.
     
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  13. whoami33

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    What else are you doing to feel better ? Like cold showers meditating or fasting running etc.
     
  14. Big Lebowski

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    Yea doing all of that. I used to be so bad I couldn't focus to meditate. I do IF now, eat good healthy meals. I like my showers lukewarm. You can't put a set date on this your body will recover when it recovers..
     
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  15. whoami33

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    Thx for your responses, but this flatline state is good place to make life changes and also what i like about some of things I mentioned is that they let time to pass, time needed for healing.
     
  16. whoami33

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    Ah and one more question, how was your sessions? a 5 minute session or more like 15 or even an hour ? What about escalation?
     
  17. Big Lebowski

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    Five to 15 minutes sessions, could never go hours with porn. I think with me it was more the orgasm than the porn. Escalated to some weird shit, nothing dark but weird nonetheless.
     
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  18. Freeddom_Taker

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    Yeah man it seems it's gonna be this way.
     
  19. Freeddom_Taker

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    Wow I feel your pain with the head pressure as I'm dealing with it right now. Some days it goes smooth and other days it's like someone digging a hole w/ a shovel inside your head.
     
  20. Freeddom_Taker

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    Has anybody ever noticed one moment you seem fit w/ mental clarity like a soldier and the next you seem gaining weight and sluggish. Like that shit playing Marco Polo with you. Sometimes I feel exposed when women attracted to me especially at the workplace and minutes or hours later you become depressed and no sign of muscles.
     
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