Penile Trauma With "C" and "B" Rings

Note: This thread is graphic and might be a trigger for guys who PMO while using "B" and/or "C" Rings.

The topic is important to me and is a serious part of why I frequently fail and go back to PMO.

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The Internet is full of guys bragging about their PPCS (Problematic Porn Consumption Syndrome) -- but, they call it "Gooning" or "Bating". They justify such behavior as being a solosexual and as a lifestyle choice. But, really it is just a way to waste time and spew semen which wastes life energy.

I fell into that trap. For me, it started as a way to see PMO as being normal. I'd been on NoFap before and I'd also studied semen retention as a way to improve my life. So, I knew that gooning as a healthy habit was bullshit. I also knew that all of the habits encouraged by the gooner community were dangerous to my penis. But, I wanted to PMO more than I wanted to be healthy.

As time went by, I started to copy what I was seeing on some of the bator's Twitter accounts and other micro-blogging sites. This included:

• Edging for hours or days
• Watching vid clips designed to hypnotize and fuck up the mind
• Keeping a "bate spread" of the legs. I didn't believe it at first but, it can delay ejaculation.
• A goal of PMOing so much that the mind gets "stoopid" from lack of food, sleep, and an overdose of porn.
  
• Using a lube to PMO that won't dry out (there is a brand name I won't mention)
• Wearing a cock ring and ball stretcher while PMOing

I guess I got lucky in that I didn't copy using pot, other drugs, or poppers. So, I wasn't 100pct dumb - just 99pct.

I'd read about death grip and didn't believe it. My penis was circumcised by a doctor when I was born and I'm sure that requires a firmer grip to get to orgasm than for a guy whose penis is still intact.

Here is the heart of the problem. I started using cock rings and ball stretchers while watching any and all manner of porn. I started this habit after seeing it on almost every gooning and bating Twitter account or micro-blog.

I have to make it my goal to not use cock rings and stretchers anymore. I know for certain that it's damaged my penis. The trauma to the penis structure is real. My penis is not as sensitive as it used to be.

But, it's a giant circle. The less sensitivity I have in my penis, the more I want to use cock rings and stretchers to cause some sensation.

I'd PMO for hours and even for days just to get to that point of being "stoopid." I knew that having a cock ring and stretchers on for that long wasn't good. But, the more I used them, the better it felt. There is a pleasure/numb/pain feeling that happens after a time that becomes necessary to feel anything.

The last straw was when my penis went numb after a long PMO session with a thick cock ring and several rings stretching my balls.

I was lucky. The numbness only lasted for about half a day. But, it was a serious wake-up call for me. If a gooner PMO habit caused that kind of damage -- it makes "death grip" sound like a walk in the park.

But, PPCS has seriously fucked up my mind because the desire to PMO with cock rings is coming back strong. I can make it a month for sure because I've done that before. But, can I make it longer than that?

I want the benefits of semen retention that come from longer than a month, I just don't seem to be able to get there.

Sometimes I think I've gone too far down the rabbit hole to get back to normal. I'm at about 4 days or so with no masturbation and no porn. Part of me feels much better and then there is that part of me that just wants to PMO for hours and to feel the bliss of becoming mindlessly drawn into multiple screens of porn at once.

How stupid am I to think being a mindless porn-addicted drone is better than participating in real life?

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Hey @Leosash229 and @InappropriateUsername ,

Thanks for the replies. I really thought nobody would reply. I figured that even though I know I'm not the only one with this issue, I might be the only one on NoFap that has admitted it and written as much as I did.

I've heard that I am only as sick as my secrets. So, I figured I'd just tell the truth.

Thank you for your willingness to help (and your willingness to read my horror story). I'm going to work this program. Getting involved with the community is something I've avoided in the past.

Thanks,

Serious Semen Retention

 

Hey @+TenPercent ,

I know exactly what you mean. When I was "at that point" (or as you put it "down the goon hole"), I'd watch any manner of porn. Sometimes on multiple screens - desktop, table, laptop, and phone all at once.

All I wanted was some new, something else, something I'd never seen before. The items on your list were fine with me along with just about any fetish. "Gooning" is just an excuse for PPCS and I seriously need to work on semen retention.

Thanks for your message,

SSR

 

I have been down that gooning rabbit hole. It can be all consuming. It can take you places you never thought you would go. I know that first hand. Hours and energy wasted. Relationships suffer. After getting into a gooning routine, I feel so wasted - I feel regret.

Hope you are doing well.

 

As a guy who used to be an edger/gooner, I can fully relate to this. But for some reason to me at least there is something appealing about pleasure and sex denial. But I never really used any "C" and "B" rings. I don't even know where you find those.

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I honestly enjoy getting blue balls, and Sometimes fantasize about a one-sided marriage in which my wife and I have sex. She can have all the orgasms she wants. But I want her to forbid me from having mine.I also want her to tell me not to cum too. I know I have a strange mind.

 

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Hey @virtual
Your fantasy isn't unique. Some men might find it strange to want to go long periods of time without cumming. But, I know exactly how you feel.

When the porn monster gets ahold of me, I can last for hours while "bating" or "gooning". Then when PIED has set in for the 2nd or 3rd time and I have blue balls from hell, I finally give in and stop.

When having sex, I'm exactly like you. I want to find fifty ways to please my lover and love her multiple orgasms. I might leak copius amounts of precum, but I don't cum. I have even faked orgasms. Faking is much easier to do if I'm wearing a condom - plus, with a condom on, I can keep an erection (thank you ED meds) and please her even more.

It's not exactly a cuckold situation because I'm the one having sex (or bating). But, it seems to me that it is a similar desire.

I think it is a fetish if I'm gooning to it and a sexual desire if I'm having sex IRL.

 

Spoiler: TRIGGER !!!!! Descriptions of Gooning and Bating Habit

Hey @sev
Thanks for the reply. More importantly, thanks for both the details and the understanding.

This fetish of needing hours and hours of porn can consume my life.

Like you, I more or less ran into the idea of going down "the bate hole" on social media. I started out with normal everyday kinda porn and exactly like you said I've moved to every kind of fetish there is (all legal). Female, trans, transgendered person, cuckold, hypnosis, and lots more shit that is 100pct poison for my mind.

I have porn filters, I have my memory sticks locked up. And exactly like you I can get to them anytime I want. Porn filters can't stop me, they just make me think about it a bit more.