Orgasm by itself

intro
I dont usually ask these questions because they can be difficult for many reasons. But this time i need some comments if my guilt over an orgasm is justified. im worried that i have set overly strickt limits to myself and this guilt i feel is not healthy anymore.

I have reseted many times and porn isnt a problem for me anymore. ive seen two photos in past 18 months. coming from 3 hours a day of watchin videos i think this is a good deal. i dont masturbate anymore either.

im going through depression and i spend time with myself a lot, processing memories and feelings. last week i started to feel really warm and sexy in my body. it felt natural but bit weird. i havent explored my sexuality by myself a lot since starting nofap. suddenly i feel scared that if i get an orgasm, i lose my streak. i jump up and take a walk. this happens few times that day. next day same thing, my body always goes to that warm place. no sexual images or arousement or anything. just fuzzy feeling. i get scared of an orgasm and i jump up. then on the third day im thinking if my mind is going to that direction, then shouldnt i live through that fear?

the actual question
i allowed myself to feel warm and fuzzy and sexy, without any images or sexual thoughts. when i got scared of an orgasm again, i allowed it to happen. im not sure if it was more like pee that came out, but an orgasm it was anyway. can this count as masturbating (reset) under any cirumstances?