The day was nice. I had a wonderful time with my girlfriend. Now is the time I must not forget to ask god for his help and support.
Another day finished. I went hiking and had a good time with some friends. In the evening I met my grilfriend and we stand some time together. I love her. She gives me strenght to overcome my PMO addiction.
Somehow I felt ill today. Right now I am not interested in PMO as I only want to sleep. I never thought it might be usefull getting ill.
This day, I was still a bit ill. At least I was in this condition to not to think about PMO. I hope I will get well soon.
I can't belive it I made it 40 days. If you focus on god and keep you busy you can achieve the same as me! Today I met with some good friends and we talked alot about god and our belives. This usually gives me strength live my life with Jesus as it is encouraging.
Today I also met some good friends and we had a nice evening. It is good to be around people. I still do not want to lose my focus on god and living out of his power. I do not want to live without him. He is my power and my refreshment.
Today I was at a bbc so again around people. It was a nice evening. Unfortunately, I cannot always meet other people. Sometimes I also need a personal time. But with the help of god I will not fail.
I had a nice weekend. On Saturday I had an interesting talk about love, relationship, and sex with some people. It was kind of a seminar. Now I am more convinced that it is worth to neglect PMO.
I relapsed. I were tired and bored as there was not much to do. My thoughts drifted more and more to a sexual way which lead to eging and consuming mild P content. I just wanted to bring my thoughts back but than I had an O. I think, I somehow ignored a bit my relationship to god. He will give me strength. But if I do not ask him I won't get it.
What dooes you guys to stay focus on god and not to loose it? This seems to be my problem. Even if I set me some reminders after a while I will not follow them because of the reminder is getting a informatin (like a habit). I do not want to fail only to remember to stay focused on god. Do you have any suggestions?
First day passed. I had a wonderful time with my girlfriend. I think the fight is worth for her. I will continue my journey.
Went to a birthday party. It was nice. There were lots of old friends and we had a wonderful time. Thank god for my friends. Thank you for providing me everything I need.
Today, I did some sports. I like doing it but unfortunately, I often have no time. The day was relatively busy and I do not have to forget asking god for his help and spending time with him.
I have failed again. My problem with being busy the whole time is that I can get tired. If I am tired it is more likely that I will fail. Tomorrow I want to ask someone of my church group to be my accountability partner. I think it is easier to have a real person than writing a blog about it since the feedback is not that big. Do you guys have some experience in getting an accountability partner who you can see face to face?
Unfortunately I did not had the time to meet the persone who should be my accountability partner. But I will not forget it. I think my focus was wrong. I concentrated too much to avoid PMO instead of focusing on god. There is only one question I shall answer every day: Did I searched god's presence? And how is my relationship to him? The rest will follow.
I had a wonderful and sunny Sunday, went to church and listend to a challenging sermon. I can say that god is my source of power. I love him.
My day was very busy. Nevertheless I was able to have a longer praying session which gave me strength. God is good! He gives me everything I need.
Today I had a long and intensive talk with my girlfriend. She wants me to support so much. I don't know if I have deserved her. I am so thankful for her. I told her she could do one thing: Reminding me to search the preasence of the Lord. If I have the feeling that I need love or confirmation and do not get it I usually fail. In the first place, this both should come from god and not from her as I don't want her to be responsible for my failures. If she can provide it additionally it is even better.
I had a nice day and not too much to do. Since a long time, I was able to relax. I also used the time to seek god's presence.
I did some sports which was nice. I enjoyed the day but my time with god was a bit short. I have to improve it. He shall be my strength.
