I know I'll be a virgin forever because of my paraphilia.

I will be a virgin forever because I am a zoophile. Sometimes I have romantic and sexual fantasies about dogs. I don't know what to do about it. I will never live with anyone. I can't even live with an animal, because then I would want to have sex with it. I want to be with a human, just not sexually. I wish I could have a way to express my sexuality, but I can only do that with wet dreams, and then I would be embarrassed while I am doing it because I would think that it is real then. I wish I had some way to get stuff out. My parents want me to be in a relationship, so I'm saying that I'm just focusing on myself.

 

I have never watched bestiality porn before, but I have watched furry porn. I also realized I was a zoophile during my NoFap streak. I have had wet dreams with dogs in them. I don't have social media or a smart phone, but my parents really want me to get a smart phone. I don't really know how to get a counselor and it's hard to talk about this with others. How would I even find one that is expressly male?

 

I have a plan to get a counselor. I will update on another page if I do. It might take a while.

 

How would I do that? Are you suggesting that I go to conversion therapy?

 

I have stopped masturbating, and I have never seen bestiality porn in the first place. I realized I was a zoophile after my NoFap streak. What is my natural state anyway?

 

I don't really know what I was attracted to. I got addicted early. How long will it be until I start liking normal things?

 

I have a dog, but I don't find him that attractive. He is also neutered, so you don't need to worry about that. He is a black Labrador Retriever, but I like dogs with pointy ears more, like German Shepherds. I used to hate furries a lot. I then ended up watching a lot of furry porn later, which is kind of ironic. I realized I was a zoophile on my NoFap streak, like I said before. I don't really remember anything that significant about animals and sexuality.
I think I am going to tell my parents Saturday. Then, I can get therapy. I think NoFap has helped me figure out my true sexuality, which is this. It's really hard to pinpoint a cause for this. It's really just a mystery.

 

The first time I remembered liking a dog was when I was watching a video of people making fun of zoophiles! They showed a picture of a dog yawning, and I actually thought I liked it. I got scared, but I eventually forgot it. I don't know, the furry porn might have caused it. A furry is basically a humanoid animal. I only realized I was a zoophile during my NoFap streak, though. It might not go away by doing NoFap. People having sex is kind of repulsive to me. I don't like the skin. I also think breasts look weird. They're like blobs of flesh or something.

 

UPDATE: I told my parents and am finding a therapist.

I do not know the difference between the two. I just have a disordered sexuality, and I might not ever be in a relationship because of it. I just was looking for advice on how to live alone.