how far did you get into porn? ***Warning: possibly triggering content ! ***

duno but im so happy to see fellow ploviophile lol

 

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It all started with a freak accident. I was first exposed to My Little Pony NSFW animations after I searched for a profile picture as a kid. Safe Mode was off. I was turned on. The character(s) had the body of a human female, but the private parts of a horse male. Thus, I developed a futanari and horse fetish all in one. My tastes escalated, which then led me to watching women use horse-shaped / canine-shaped adult toys on themselves. But eventually I became desensitized. It no longer excited me. The next escalation is my worst yet. I'm deeply ashamed of what I am about to say next: I went from watching and reading FICTIONAL bestiality, to watching ACTUAL bestiality. Featuring real men and women with real dogs and horses. In my state, watching bestiality content is legal, but creating it is not. Knowing that fact does not help relieve my guilt. This isn't even the end. I ended up on the ageplay side of the hentai community and developed a fetish for lolicon, shotacon, toddlercon, and babycon. Nothing but drawings, animations, and sick textposts. Thank God that was the one fetish that remained entirely fictional. I most definitely would have succumbed to my guilt if it had. This still isn't the end. My Milf/Dilf fetish escalated into a fetish for fictional Mom/Son, Mom/Daughter, Mom/Dad/Daughter incest. Nothing real, only clips from scripted pornographic videos with captions added to match the story. Then my fetish for dominant men on submissive women (dom and sub) escalated into taboo territory as well. Going from enjoying a man being rough yet passionate with his woman, to enjoying straight up CNC. I'm not proud of the person that I have become. I'm not the same teenager I was in high school who would brag about how "kinky" and "hardcore" I am. My tastes back then weren't nearly as problematic as they are now.

I live in fear of what I may become if this continues. Please pray for me . . . God knows I need it.

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From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much. I never would have expected such kind words.
When you said I am a nice person on the inside, I could no longer hold back the tears and broke down crying. I have always believed that I am a sick and twisted person beneath an innocent surface (it's why I thought these escalations happened in the first place). For you to say that, truly really means a lot.

 

As has been said by others, it was not the content but rather the extent of the porn, just straight man and woman porn, but so many hours and hours of wasted life.

 

The farthest i got was pretty bad in my opinion. Nothing illegal, but definately dangerous and most likely immoral to most.

 

Gooning videos were the thing that really screwed me up, especially the one's that call you a porn addict. Really tough to get away from that.

 

never really escalated much, things I like to watch are pretty much the same things I like in real life. Only real escalation is that it needs to be fast/hard or I get bored. When I quit for 4 months I started craving slow sex again.

Things changed with deepfakes, though. I got really into deepfake porn. I like music and have a thing where I'm very attracted to female musicians. I made a bunch of deepfakes of my favorite singers and put some of them up online. That was the first time I actually did something that made me feel bad/guilty. Prior to that I was just hurting myself and it didn't affect anyone else.

 

interesting that they fetishize their addiction. I remember watch video of them mixing it togheter wirh youtube video that explains why porn is bad and they actually like to fetishize it. Sometime I ask myself if these are made by people that are addicted same as us or just people that want you addicted and have their interests to maintain you in a slave status.

 

I was going to post my story but realized I was the one who created this thread over 4 years ago lol.

 

I agree. You get off on the humiliation it brings you. The big issue however, it begins to seep into the real world and starts making you feel like you are lower than everyone else and some kind of perverted freak.

 

About the visual porn I was into weird tentacle monster stuff (only animated because at least it made me disgusted seeing it on real life)
Also those morally cuestionable hentai stories, I know it's fiction but still they were noncon. and when I was like in a normal state it made me uncomfortable.

I was also into audio porn (still struggle with it), so how far I went was: noncon, humillation and degrading stuff, one talking about blackmail and threatening the listener, someone role-playing specific male fictional characters. Again, all of this isn't hurting anybody other than me but still made me a bit guilty and concerned, not as much as the visual ones but still it makes me wonder if it's having an effect or sending messages to my unconscious mind and of course it's messing up my dopamine and brain.

 

Wow, some crazy stuff there. For me it’s just stuff like puking, transgendered person porn, rough hair pulling etc, (which seems to be the norm these days) . Incredible the places it took you guys. With me as well I get the urge for hookers, which invariably ends up with a girl in an awful apartment, no offence to her. Just simple, unwanted behaviour.