how far did you get into porn? ***Warning: possibly triggering content ! ***

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  1. BravelyKegger

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    I am curious what type of porn you got into before you finally realized you had to stop, honestly there are some truly horrific porn genres out there, i would say the worst are child porn, guro, snuff, but at the same time all porn is equally bad, they all effect you in some way. For me sissy porn was as deep as i got, but i had seen some truly horrific things during my time, stuff nearing the snuff genre, but more like prolonged torture, there was no pleasure, no happyness, just a bunch of sadists getting off on mutilating someone. That stuff haunts me honestly, but i learned just how vile porn was from thos experiences.
     
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  2. evan alden

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    My experience was similar. It's been a couple weeks now since I realized something really important, and it's that I was slowly turning into those degenerates I've always hated. I mean, what makes me so special as to give in to this addiction everyday and not turn into one? Are my desires lesser than theirs?
    I'd prefer not to share because of the possible triggers for other people, but that's my insight
     
  3. MusicMakingMonk

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    I got into "teens", I figured it was normal, as I was a teen right?
    Let's just say the youth factor escalated.
     
  4. bigboibez

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    Whats guro?
     
  5. BravelyKegger

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    hentai where the girl basically gets brutally murdered and fucked. Basically the drawn version of snuff.
     
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  6. MonkeyDo

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    I guess the worst for me was bestiality porn. I also got into porn comics and manga/doujinshi for a while, and some of them contained torture, violence, bestiality, and random weird stuff like giant women or women made out of jelly. I was also into incest stuff for a while but I don't know if I ever watched any real incest or if it was all fantasy.

    For most of the time though I was hooked on regular old vanilla porn videos.

    I remember when I first got into porn around age 12. I started out just looking at pics of naked young women on 4chan and that would be enough for me to climax. Over time that wasn't enough and I needed more and more to get turned on.

    I'm saddened by my porn-viewing years, but in a healthy way. I think it's good to look back and be sad, but at the same time recognizing that you were a young guy who had shit going on in his life that made him want to find a safe haven, and porn was that safe haven. I don't judge myself for what I did. But I am saddened by it. I've grieved for those times, and I imagine there is still some more grieving that I have yet to do.
     
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  7. BravelyKegger

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    yah i totally understand that, i started at the age of 12 to and started with boring vanilla porn, and ended up in a lot of bad places.
     
  8. Ridley

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    For me, it was not about the genre of porn I got into before I finally had to stop, but rather about the sheer volume of it. I was always into pretty vanilla porn. I satisfied my desire for novelty by collecting. Every time I found a video or picture that I liked, I would add it to a hard drive. One night (about a year ago), I realized that there were gigabytes and gigabytes of porn on that hard drive, and that I was only going to continue adding more to satisfy my urges for variety and novelty. That was the moment that I said "this is enough". It wasn't about the type of porn I was watching, but rather how much of it was a part of my life.
     
  9. Big Lebowski

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    That was such a lovely heart felt post mate. Very similar story to me as well. Beastality, I couldn’t get hard to vanilla or hardcore at the age of 18-19 and seeing a handful of them gave me the ‘magic’ back temporarily and I thought what was I doing watching this shit.. and the tube site I was frequently visit was pushing that “incest” category. Although I very much doubt it was real incest and just a role play type scenario, still fucking sad either way though.
     
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  10. PathOfReform

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    I was heavily into JOIs and POVs, mostly incest stuff. Incest mangas and comics, too. That being said - despite having a very good looking sister, I've never reached as far as becoming attracted to her and same thing goes for other good looking female family members, the thought of it alone makes me gag(no pun intended). So the lines of fantasy and reality never blurred for me there.

    In the last couple of weeks before going on NoFap I started developing attraction to femboys, both furries and eventually real life transgender women. The day I found out I was attracted to tgirls I went on my first and longest NoFap streak(27 days). Now I can barely make a few days-week without eventually breaking for some reason...Although, my physical attraction to real females has returned a bit and I can get aroused by them. When I was about to relapse I switched to my former, regular JOI tastes and forgot about my tgirl attraction. I guess at least I got a good sign of actual improvement from that damn relapse.
     
  11. dboy18

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    You guys sound like you gotten far, don't know half about the kind of porn you talking about.
    I stated with softcore stuff, solo black women masturbating to lesbian porn. Black women being given backshots was my favorite. To see those big black asses bouncing and waving gives me the ultimate sensation.
     
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  12. BravelyKegger

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    its good you did not get any farther than that, generally the more depressed and unhappy with your life you are, the more messed up stuff you will look at.
     
  13. Clean Willy

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    That is totally normal.
     
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  14. Ridley

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    Hey, I appreciate that you're contributing to the conversation, but I also wanted to point out that some of what you're writing here might be really challenging for people who are struggling in their recoveries. It's okay to mention that you were into softcore stuff, but there's no need to go into graphic detail about that.
     
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  15. Clean Willy

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    I find it hard to believe that a drawing of anything is very damaging compared to real people being tortured, abused and killed. I mean, like you see a drawing of a murder, so what? I am not attacking you, but hentaii is like mild in my opinion.
     
  16. pillan24

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    I wont share, because I consider that version of me to be in the past.
     
  17. Luk2005

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    Oh, there was a lot - pretty much everything except bestiality, gay and underage (thankfully this was a line i didn't crossed). I really started to worry when some scat videos and most of shemale porn stopped bothering me. That was a good moment to admit that it's going too far...
     
  18. BravelyKegger

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    No i prefer them to be graphic about it, i want to hear the full story, if you cannot handle it than dont read this post.
     
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  19. BravelyKegger

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    thats fine, but it does not hurt talking about the past so others can relate and learn from it. ^~^
     
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  20. Clean Willy

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    Incest is as far as I got. I only used the very popular free porn website, so I doubt the actors were even related. But that did not matter, I wanted to believe that they were related and that I was watching something "wrong" and "unnatural"! o_O
    I looked at loads of other genres, but nothing turned me on as much as incest. :eek: I had no incest feelings in my real life.
     
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