Girl talk

Yeah.. It's a good idea but I won't promise anything.. I want to make it different this time and not plan ahead too much because I can feel it stimulates my neediness and from what I read in the book it's not something I'd want right now so I'll try to be spontaneous, the biscuit part was spontaneous after all and from my opinion it went great but thanks for the idea, it'll definitely help!

 

So, the wedding is over.. Conclusions time:
1. Firstly, the girl I was expecting to meed ended up not coming at all.. I don't know a reason or something for that. Her parents were there, I respectfully said hello to them but didn't ask about her because I didn't want to look too needy.. Maybe it's better that she didn't come..

2. Thank you again @MasturbatieAtelier, I read the first 7 chapters of the book you recommended before going to the wedding and got so much info and weirdly, I analyzed what I was reading and a lot of it(like the neediness part, the expressing your true self and being bold part) I somehow knew on my inside but it was all buried with the crappy pua advice found everywhere online and now it came to the surface. Anyway, I ended up talking a little in the beginning of the wedding with a girl that's 2 years older than me. After about 5 minutes of conversation she gave me this weird look and said that something is changed about me but she couldn't tell what. That's when I knew that my change in attitude was benefiting me, a whole lot actually. We ended up spending most of the evening together at the party talking, playing, I let go of my inhibitions and touched her a few times on the arm, waist and knees, we tickled each other and really had fun although the girl I was expecting was nowhere to be found. We took a long walk, I was really honest with her, talked about future plans, i told her I'm anxious around the girls I like, while walking, we met her parents, they were talking a walk too, we joked a little and they let us walk more. I didn't make any move to kiss her though because it seemed like a little bit too much for me for my first "uninhibited" time. I think I should still not force myself too much because it may come up as needy behavior and would kill all the attraction.

When going home she gave me a big hug and said she really enjoyed spending the night together and that she hopes to meet up again soon. Her parents looked quite content about me talking to her so I really had an awesome night!
I owe you guys hundreds of likes and thanks because you helped me get out of my mind and just have fun for maybe the first time in a reaaally long time!

 

The NoFap program and commitment made my self esteem just literally boost and the people around me can already see it, I was more proactive the whole night, I walked up to people to say hello(which I usually didn't), introduced myself to a couple of people(which again, I usually don't do) so after 16 days I can already see a huuuuge progress in my life, in my attitude, motivation and life in general, I can see a change taking place and that makes me happy!!!

 

Yeah, I saw that it usually happens that's why I try most of the time to just trust that I'll manage the situation somehow (like survive) but this night was so much more than surviving. I hope I'll stay like this

Thank you and I hope that my whole experience with girls from now on to be changed! This book was everything I was looking for!!!

 

Yeah!! You should also check "No more Mr Nice Guy!" It's also suggested at the end of "Models".. I started reading it and it amazes me.. I can see myself described in it