I DONT WANNA FAIL THIS YEAR Havn’t update for a while because i have been struggling alot with pmo of late. But that wasn’t an excuse to leave this thread. I must keep on fighting, all my believe is in God. And i know God only help those who help themselves so i will work hard. DAY 1 am back and am never leaving this thread until i achieve what i came here for.
Day 17. I was starting this jurney few times in the past and always relaps. I had a "turning point" 17 days ago and decided to do what i was on my mind for a while. Turning point - means a highly stresful event that motivated my to quit porn. I had it several times beforein my life. Im already on therapy (anxiety, depression). So what i done - I have decided to return to the faith in God. Faith was present in my life but it was fainting every year to almost not existing. I was inspired by words of Andrew Hubrmann who also prays, that there are things beyond us. Things we can not handle ourselves. Religion also tells us - small things you can probably fix yourself - for big problems you need a help from God. I decided to open myself completly to grace of The Lord. I have confessed ALL my sins and i will confess every week now. Its not only about p..n. I want to be a better person. Im a Catholic and we confess to the pries what gives also a personal dimention to this. I chose my confessor and I will not change him. From practical things. I deleted all p..r related things if i had them on c PC. I used safe DNS to block it on both my PC and Smart Phone. I deleted accounts on anyother platforms where p..n is avaialable - only twitter left but i might delete it as well. I watch on daily basis Dr. Trish Leigh, P*rn Brain Rewire on YT. https://www.youtube.com/@PornBrainRewireDrTrishLeigh. Its 17 days - not a lot but it feels much longer. I dont really have urges but my braing (The evil one?) starts to play some tricks with my. If a stopid though somes to my brain - i quickly say a prayer. usually helps. My libido- is close to zero - strange. thats probably because of stress. I had once sex with my wife during those days but i only manage to give her pleasure and could not do it for my. But this is fine. so thats my story. If there is a God in your life or was - ask him for help. Dont overthink just open your hear and ask for help. cheers
Prayers do help alot also i started listening to Billy Graham preaching on youtube, his teachings are very good.