Found this site by accident on Reddit of all places. This is the "Who am I " part of the process so he we go. Single (as said in my avatar name) I was married but I was either gone with the MARINEs or on the road driving my truck so she left with every willing man who walked by. On top of that she literately took everything. Thanks to "Power of attorney" while over seas, she cleaned me out and left. Since then I fell into a circle of feeling alone, then depression, accept it, get over it feel good, then porn, lonely again, then depression, accept it, then get over it and feel good, then porn do you see the circle here? I have been going to Christian Recovery but I stopped that for now, they keep talking about how you need a community and people to talk to. Well that is all well and good, but they don't really practices what they preach. Went there for 6 months and you might see the same person twice, but the people are always changing. How are you supposed to get to know someone when you only see them once a month if that? So like everything else, I'm on my own with this. So I will be lurking in the back ground reading and watching. I now understand what Pink Floyd meant by "adding another brick to the wall" I have been keeping my self busy, it helps keep the "voices" quiet. I sold my truck and trailer, got a new job that lets me be "home" everyday, but I take care of my parents now so they take up a good bit of my time. When I'm not taking care of the house or my Dad ( he is 88 with a lot of health issues) I'm in the process of restoring a Motorcycle, a full frame up restoration. I also build Gundam and other models and I go to conventions and competitions. But as I slow down at the end of the day as I slow my brain down, that is when my demons come out and the needs start. Lay in Bed trying not to think about something means that is all you can think about. Tylenol PM finally kicks in and sleep finally comes, only to start over the next day and repeat. EDIT: Wow, reading that back it makes it sound worse than it is! I'm really not as bad off as it sounds. I'm a rather upbeat happy go lucky kind of person. I just tend to keep my demons to myself, that way I always have a drinking buddy!
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