Actially, I'm at day 4 today... But still, succes! I had a great productive day. I do feel some urges coming up, so a'll be meditation some more and going offline! See you guys tomorrow.
Feeling bloody horrible with flu symptoms, high fever & other unpleasant stuff! Strange thing is it kicks in around 2/3 in the afternoon everyday for the last 2 weeks. Ive never had anything like this in my life. Had my 4th blood test today. So before all the aches and pains kick in I had a massive urge to wank and orgasm when I woke, as my balls are sore from the fever and no wanking in 38 days.... longest I’ve gone in 30 years! I new I’d feel guilt shame if I gave in, got in the shower and put cold water on my face to finish, dodged a bullet. At lunch an incredibly sexy Asian girl walked into the restaurant I was eating at, bang the urges to orgasm hit hardcore! My mind was hyper aroused, saying things like “you ought to get massage with a happy ending”.... washing my hands in the bathroom after lunch “ it’s ok just this once, you deserve it”. I held of, I’m not good at giving myself credit, but today was pretty insane , urge wise! Rebooting is going to take a while, I new pmoing was a big problem for me, I really don’t want to relapse. Apart from boring you guys on nofap. I told my Psycologist about my whole situation, she was very encouraging and linked my addiction to some ocd issues I have. She said other male clients had nervously opened up to her about PMO addiction and in my case I’m looking at about a year to reset or reboot. To everyone on nofap wishing you peace and happiness. It’s a strength in numbers game and we will overcome this mayhem! Sleep well
Hi, hang in there lots of anxiety & depression, mood swings for me too. Like me you want pmo out of your life. It’s bloody hard work, some of the hardest I’ve done! We’ll see brighter days very soon
Day 1/21: Yesterday i finished the 14 days challenge, so today i'm starting the 21 days challenge (thank you @2525 for providing the challenges) My mood is positive, calm, thankful to be here in my journey, let's do this !