Beamer: My Rebooting journal will be here, starting day = 8/10/2017...

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  1. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Hi all,
    I left my life story in the "New to NoFap" section today (10 october 2017).
    Here i will describe shortly the days of my rebooting, feelings, experiences,...
    I do this for myself to see how i am evolving during the reboot, but you're very welcome to read ofcourse. I will be honest about everything here, this will be my withness afterwards and support if times get troubled (hopefully not).

    Day 1-3: i started with a "yes !" feeling for finally have found a method that is structured with a lot of participants who want exactly the same: stop PMO and live life to the full again...

    My goals are no P,M,O and for minimum 90 days, but the real goal is do this no-PMO thing for the rest of my life (no surprise i guess)...)

    So far, so good, :)
     
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  2. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Day 4: i had a good day, no temptations whatsoever :)
    I am feeling very relaxed since i started on sunday and my mood is very positive. I hope it stays that way, but i expect things to get worse
    along the line. But for now, i feel good since a very, very long time :)
     
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  3. wally_s

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    Good going, Beamer, and welcome to the community! We keep it one day at a time. All the best to you and keep on, my friend!
     
  4. Beamer

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    Thank you for your support and kind remarks ! Stay strong yourself 2 ;)
     
  5. Beamer

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    Day 5: i had no temptations, my mood is still very good :)
    Oh yeah: On day 2 i erased everything i had of porn, i mean like everything, and it feels like i'm free !
    Who needs the crap anyways ?:cool:
    Stay strong guys !
     
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  6. Beamer

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    Day 6: still no temptations of any danger. A bit tired because i slept not for very long, but i'm relaxed and my mood is very positive.
    Weekend is finally here and i look forward to it. Being without the compulsive fapping is a blessing, i hope my brain is yet recovering from
    years of addictive porn behavior. Stay alert and strong !
     
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  7. mungo

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    Very good, Beamer , you erased everything.
    I know that´s necessary. I still have some sites with collected pics online, I did´t erase them yet, as well as I didn´t erase a 64 GB USB stick full with material.
    There seems to be a little corner in my brain,where a voice suggests to leave the pics and vids unerased, maybe only for later, to see objectivly in the hindsight, what I´ve done : Didn´t I spend so much time , didn´t I meticulously care about putting the pics into categorized folders and files ?

    I know one should never trust this voice.

    As you say : who needs the crap anyway ?
     
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  8. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Thx for your reply,
    I thought it would be necessary to erase everything,but most important, i will never use it again. If i didn't think so, why bother doing NoFap ?
    I also had a stick of 64GB, and one of 32GB also, and some movies and pics on my harddrive backup. I all cleared it without hesitation in about 10 minutes, and it felt so good afterwards, like a burden that had fallen of my shoulders, it really was.
    It reduces one more temptation also.
    I am really committed to succeeding here, i was (am) very , very addicted and everyday i see how much now that i'm off it (for now).
    so, i suggest you do the same, but it's your decision ofcourse.
    Be strong ! Congrats with your 21 days, it's impressing, i'm only on day 6 but slowly counting :)
     
  9. mungo

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    Hi Beamer !
    I did it !
    I erased everything, the USB-stick.
    I deleted the tumblr account with close to 10000 followers, where I collected thousands of pics.
    I deleted an account on a dating site, that I used mostly to look at pics for PMO.

    I feel free,

    All the other attempts to stop PMO in the last years were tackled halfheartedly

    Thanks for the nudge.

    Thanks !
     
    Last edited: Oct 13, 2017
  10. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Way to go man ! Tell me , doesn't it feel relieved ? Big step forward to NoFap forever, proud of you you did it ! Stay strong now !
     
  11. mungo

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    For something new to be born we have to dump the old, the more if it is a bad habit.

    Now there is one temptation less , as you said. I killed a cautious IF... for a clear NO ! without return.

    And hey, thanks to you again and all the guys in the forum, I appreciate the support given in the posts here on NoFap, that I need(ed) so badly !
     
    Last edited: Oct 13, 2017
  12. Beamer

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    Welcome buddy,
    We have all the same goal here, together we can win this fight !
    Keep moving forward !
     
  13. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Day 7: completed my first challenge (7 days no PMO), i'm so happy it went so well.
    I have never in my entire life done this since my early youth :)
    The most important for me is that i started of successfully what i want to be a NoFap period of at least 90 days, hopefully more.
    Tomorrow i will start a 30-day challenge :)
    Thx everyone for the support i'm getting in this journey, thank you ! Stay strong !
     
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  14. Beamer

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    Day 8: also day 1 of a 30 day challenge (thank you 2525 !).
    Today was again a good day, positive mood, few urges and no temptations really.
    Yesterdag evening there were some naked bodies in a documentary on tv, but that didn't make me wanting to do anything, so i guess i'm lucky.
    My mood is still incredibly positive, possibly is this the "surge effect", so i will enjoy it while it lasts :)
     
  15. mungo

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    Each day deserves a congratulation, no matter how long the intented challenge is. 30 days is good und you will manage to reach that point, on Novermber 15 th !
    Surf the waves of positive feelings but ( I say that to myself as well ) don´t become dependent on good moods to hold on to your goal.
     
  16. Beamer

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    Thank you man !
    I know the bad days will come for me, but like you said, i won't just give in on them.
     
  17. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
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    Day 9: another good day, i have so much energy and such a good mood , i just can't explain it, the "surge" effect is getting hard on me i guess.
    I'm just a bit worried that the rebound will also be extreme, which would not be a good thing offcourse... But for now, staying strong :)
     
    Last edited: Oct 16, 2017
  18. Beamer

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    Day 10: my stomach is a bit awkward, but that has nothing to do with my nofap i guess.
    I still feel ok, no urges noticeable and my mood still relaxed and positive.
    My first double digit day :):):) Keep moving forward...
     
  19. db001

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    Well done @Beamer! You are powering through. So pleased for you. Enjoy the energy and good mood you are feeling and put it to good use. Get busy and do all the things you ignored or neglected because of your addiction. And stay strong.
     
  20. Beamer

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    Thx a lot buddy ! You 2 :)
     
    Last edited: Oct 18, 2017

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