Oh, my bad, mate, I was looking at it the wrong way then. I'm sorry to hear about the strike. But thank you for your honesty, and for relaying the sequence of events that lead to the relapse. I have noticed that many people share the same struggle, and addicts in recovery who survive relapses say that shutting down ANY sexual thoughts before they develop is crucial. It is a challenge, but I think meditation has aided me in being aware of and detached from thoughts. Have you heard of Headspace.com?
Then don't, man. It starts now. I'm sorry to hear the fall, but I know you, and I know you'll break this thing.
I'd suggest you next time when you'll feel like relapsing to take a piece of paper and to write down the pros and cons of this act. For example; Pros: - It'll help me to calm down and I'll be less stressed - My horniness levels will decrease Cons: - It'll make me feel ashamed of myself - My shyness levels around girls will increase - I'll suffer from lack of energy and depression and then to decide whether it worths it or not.
Another strike... I hoped that I could make this streak longer than what it was. Since last reset I think I managed to avoid thoughts of P and M better. However today I got some strong urges to P, which is the main thing I want to get rid of in my life. I decided to take the easy way out to get rid of the thoughts and masturbated. Not good in the long run... I'll try to go for at least a week now. Yes, some people have recommended it to me. I should definitely take a look at it. Is everything ok? You're free to leave but just hope you're ok.
Thanks for the support my friend! You will not be bullshitted my friend. Thanks for being honest about your relapse my friend.You are still doing well overall though. For me my relapse was just simple a failure in willpower on my part.
10/14/2018 Ok a few things to mention here. 1 I have stayed clean for 4 days and if I make it until the morning I will have completed that 3 days challenge...time has flown by. 2.I noticed that I have not been doing a proper job keeping things up here,I've been missing 2 or 3 days in a row quite often as of late and many thanks to @Future role model who pointed out to me that he left the challenge and I never even removed him from the leader board (what a dumbass) So @Blossom and @Praksh You are now teamed together.you might want to get together and form a new team name.just let me know if you come up with a new one. Also @Mr.Chips I am sorry to hear this but I will ask you to please confirm it here one more time.Do you want to leave the challenge? I am sorry for my mishaps in the management of the thread as of late but I will be doing better now and you can count on that. Hold the line everyone.
@Future role model has left the challenge? I didn't see that coming.. :/ @Praksh Welcome to the club, mate.
Checking in to report a relapse. Urges hit me at night and for some stupid reason, I gave into an experience that I fooled myself into thinking would be satisfactory. But no... Sigh... the end of a 59 day streak. Drat.