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  1. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    About me.
    Hello. I am from india and i am an PMO addict. I am not married yet and i want to be ready(clean from PMO) when that day comes.


    My Goal.
    Right now i am 32 yo and i want to change my life by freeing myself from PMO and MO. I PMO during weekends when i feel lonely or stressed out. But as i write this i am free from PMO for over a week and am taking the 14 day challenge in which i am 4 days in.
    It is tough though, i am fighting it and want to complete the challenge, gonna have to face a lot of sleepless nights :).
    Wishing you all a good luck in your journey and i hope you can find a peaceful space in life.
     
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  2. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    I have not done PMO or MO for atleast 7 days now . I feel some pressure and tingling just below the stomach area , probably my prostate i think. Hope it goes away, it feels uncomfortable. This happened once before when i stopped Ming. After i M, i remember it goes away. But i will not be Ming now because of this. I want to reach my goal of 14 days.
     
  3. Woodcutter74

    Woodcutter74 Fapstronaut

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    Facing a lot of sleepless nights myself but like you I want to complete the challenge.
     
  4. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    Its been more than a week without PMO and i can feel the energy in me, I am more active physically and my thinking is more defined. Hate the weekends cause i tend to PMO, its become such a habit in my life that everything else takes second place. I mean its grown into a compulsion, like i have to do it. I am controlling the feeling and NOFAP is something i can hold on to. I use the word hate cause my body takes a week to recover after every PMO. I have slowly worn my body down. It is one other reason i am doing NOFAP is to stay healthy and have a sharp mind.
     
  5. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    Today is day 9 of No PMO and it seems to be a hard day for me. I am controlling the urge but there is a odd feeling which i get in my prostate area like tingling, i think which makes me want to think about fapping. Its odd that i have not thought of PMO and yet my body reminds me i have to do it. I will keep it in me as long as possible and reach day 10. This is the first time i am documenting what is happening usually i will just do it and move on but i know better now, i am growing into a better person everyday.
     
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    spaces Fapstronaut

    Had a better day today no problem with the prostate, no tingling, and no major urges , i am noticing a lot of hot babes in the road during my drive though :). I think i will make it to 11th day and beyond. but the dreaded weekend has started, so have to be careful not to fallback to porn. Longest i have made it without fapping is 4 weeks.
     
  8. liveclean

    liveclean Fapstronaut

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    Stay strong, you can do this.
     
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  9. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    This is my 12th day of no PM&O , feeling irritated , depressed , and confused . Should keep myself occupied. Having a brain fog like thing going on today. Also feel sluggish.
     
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  10. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    I thought of relating my story here in this forum but i guess the past is past, i cant change any of that. What i can change is what i do or be today/tomorrow. Im here now to change myself for the better. Finding such a community is a God send for me, i thought i was alone in this struggle.:emoji_ghost:
     
  11. SpiritVessel

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    You are certainly not alone. We are all in this together. Stay strong, stay focused, stay involved. I've never made it this far into my attempts to nofap, and I attribute a lot of the success this time to having a place I can go and feel a part of a community.
     
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  12. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    Thank you for your reply :)
     
  13. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    This is my 13th day of No P and No MO. Have lots of energy, i feel great, have good thoughts. Some feeling in my prostate area but i can control it i hope. Have good dopamine release to music :) .
    I do feel some shame at times when i think of times past, but who doesn't? I'm just happy i have not given up.
     
  14. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    A new day has started and i am 15 days no PMO . 1 day into 21 day challenge . I feel healthy in mind and body . I may have brain fog, not clear about what that is :confused:. I will keep challenging myself.
     
  15. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    I have tried to quit porn several times for several years all were unsuccessful. Every time i try, i experience the same thing, good health, good thoughts, i interact with people more, i talk confidently, i go for walks , i look at peoples eyes confidently, i am more confident atleast for whatever time i do not go back to the old habit, everything goes away. Its a shitty thing. cant help it, i am powerless at this urge. I did give up and accepted my life. but now i have found this website and lots of similar here people who have overcome this problem , i feel i can also do this i will keep trying.:) (excuse my english)
     
  16. sasithorn

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    ให้ฉันได้ยืนอยู่ตรงนี้:p
     
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  17. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    Had a dull day today, brain fog is still there for me also feel lethargic, irritated . My dick was calling out to me but what i did was took a brisk walk for half an hour, i feel fine now. I want to complete the 21 days challenge, i'm two days in . Good luck to all :)
     
  18. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    God thats a good song Do whatever it takes.:)
     
  19. spaces

    spaces Fapstronaut

    Yesterday night like 12.30am this is the usual time i fall asleep, i had some major urges to M , i can feel the pulse in my groin area for sometime , which i hope is a normal thing all experience. Usually i would have done it and fall asleep , but yesterday i just fell asleep after some time. Which is a major thing for me. I am now 18 days without P or M. I have no major urges now although they do come and go when i am stressed. My hands still tremble / shake , still feel brain fog. I feel as if it is getting easier everyday . why i feel blue / depressed i don't know. It feels good to share these here . I think one of the reasons for me not to give up.
     
  20. Be strong friend... if you're feeling low its also a good sign of progress. Take care.
     
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