Alright, I'm in. I lasted 15 days, then had sex with my GF and had an O. This made me lazy and I drifted towards my old behaviour. I had promised myself to not O during sex, but I gave in to the temptation. Next morning I M'ed. I have to get this stuff under control until it becomes second nature. Count me in, this is day 0. Let's go.
@Single Change Palm congratulation u have completed 15days. hightly appreciate ur efforts in this 15days.
Thanks. I learned a lot these last weeks. My goal is to be able to be intimate with my GF without falling back to my old behaviour. But at this moment in time, I have to restrain myself from the activity that produces a habit of fantasizing. I am looking forward to my goal. To the day I can live without fantasizing, without dreaming, without escaping reality. To the day I can fully live and be present, no matter how shitty life is, no matter the difficulty I am in. To be able to tackle life head-on, without averting my eyes. To accept life with a steady and peaceful inner strength. This is my goal!
No urge today. Morning some physical workout for 1 hour. Then may day started with regular work. No erection No temptation. Last night was disturbed sleep. Felt heavy and pain in my prostate region. Previously too I felt this if I dont release my urge and semen. But still I moved on without any PMO. Good Day!
Day 3 of 21 complete! Looking forward to a good workout this evening. It really helps relive the stress of the day and make it easier to cope with other challenges.
14 days, one week left. Urges have actually gone back a little. I just forced myself a little not to think about PMO and not to do any touching and it worked haha. If I can or can't hold back urges also really depends on my mood I found out in the past time and since I have good mood right now it's going pretty good. Take care.
Day 5 Massive urges. Telegram fault. I am still recovering but watched briefly nudes. I dont know what to do. I dont want to live every momentday of this journey not relapsing only because I cant... I wont relapse because I dont want to. What do you suggest? Outis
Block it out, Think long term. You are already on the winning path with a good few days behind your back. Snap out of this prison designed to enslave your mindset. It is yours to be free. Fight on, it is hard now but if you stick to it you will feel so very much lighter. Strongs to you
17/21 update. was at school till late in the evenings, having some trouble with sleep again. but motivation is kind of back
day9/21. Bad day today. Got a bad mark on my essay, still passed though, put so much time and effort into it as well. And just had a terrible test this morning. Oh well just got to carry on I guess.
Day 1 - No PMO I can't stand studying hard and then not being able to do exercises. I'm doubting of my University choice.