Hello, I'm ready to open my heart up about my story. I'm a 26 year old US Veteran Male who has struggled with PTSD, Severe Social Anxiety, Depression, & Porn/Sex Addiction. I have struggled with this addiction since I was 10 years old I believe. This ridiculous addiction has forced me to look at people,women, and the world in a completely different manner. I have dreams to become an entrepreneur in sales either through some form of Digital Marketing platform, whether it's through Shopify, Amazon or some form of online platform.Maybe software or app development, or writing a book. But due to this addiction and also a battle with depression,social anxiety,past traumas and PTSD (even though that's getting better) I have no identity and have lost my ability to do become a producer instead of a consumer. I became a soldier and that's what I Identified with, now I've been a civilian for 2 years and honestly it's been the worst time of my life. I have been homeless and also put into prison while struggling with all of these symptoms I have seen a therapist but I didn't express my addiction to pornography, only my issues with depression and PTSD, over some time I realized that my issue has also included porn addiction. It doesn't help that most advertising and entertainment is becoming sexual based. While I do love women, I believe that my love for women has changed the way that I look at my approach to life. I have been having flashbacks of the past and have been struggling with manifesting my goals. I have also become suicidal and have thought about suicide almost every single day for the past year or two. I have done a lot of research on depression and symptoms. I have every last one of them. I research guys such as Ralph Waldo Emerson, Terrance McKenna, Alan Watts, Ralph Smart, Dr. Phil Valentine, and a lot of great metaphysicians and philosophers. It's very interesting that I am able to read these people's words and they resonate with me as if they are from another universe. But I'm struggling with dealing with my love of philosophy,history,self development, and technology and creating something tangible in the physical world. Porn has made it so that everything needs to be instant and it has changed my brain, but the beauty of is that I am aware. Hello guys.
Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for protecting our country. You are amongst many who share your struggles with porn and I’ll assume masturbation. Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you. The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
Welcome. I am a US Army veteran, though much older than you. You will find good Comraderee , people with good advice, and friendship here One can always learn something by reading the journals. Best of luck in your journey.
My current goal is to learn to program, I have enrolled in a fullstack course and now have a gym membership for idle time to keep me from PMO and to train my brain.
Good to have a goal. I found I needed a lot more than one strategy to fill idle time (which was is a real problem for me). This is not my first time, so, if you'd like, I can make a list of things for you that WON'T work... but you might not need those. Check around this site and the Your Brain on Porn site. Get some info. Hang around. I make a point of spending at least 15 minutes a day on this forum, and sometimes it's a lot more than that.
NEW GOALS! I'm going to start a window cleaning business! My goal is to have my business off the ground before the year is over with. Can't sleep so I'm going to focus on taking the steps needed to start my business, my adrenaline is at an all time high! I can't wait for anybody. I'm unstoppable. This PMO thing is already working.
As great as it is to have a goal, having strategies in place (boundaries set) will help you reach those goals.
