I'm getting to bed early today. I've been able to keep clean on my third day being at home sick. But I have been feeling very depressed and have spent way too much time with screens. Tomorrow I'll try to cut down on screen time and spend more time praying, reading and resting in other ways.
Finally, lost my virginity at age 23! Feeling happy abt it & this time alone I hav taken this as one strike. So new day counter starts Day 0
Everything is still going well on my end. Still feeling virtually no urges for PMO at all. It crosses my mind every once in a while, especially reading things here or if someone mentions porn or masturbation or whatever. But I don't really have any desire to do it. I'm really excited about being 28 days clean, and I don't want to start over again. I'm afraid that if I do, it'll take me another year or more to get back to this point, and I don't want that. So I'm still going strong!
I am glad you are going well guys!! I am in my day 2 Today is so beautiful as Saturday is a weekend and rainy weather I am learning from my mistakes of last relapses, some changes needed which I will complete today. It feels bad to see everyone ahead in double digits while I am still resetting. But I believe I can do some change and hope it is this time. I wish you all a beautiful weekend! CHECK IN
Another strike. I'm sorry to have let you down, @Castielle. Again, it happened during the night, woke up and couldn't fall asleep again. I usually don't struggle with falling asleep, but for some reason have the last week or so, perhaps because I'm sick. I had super strong urges to both masturbate and watch porn, and after trying to fall asleep again for an hour I gave in, masturbated, took a hot shower and went to bed again, and slept like a baby. If this happens again I'll try to just take the shower, because that's probably what really made me fall asleep again. What really scares me and makes me disappointed isn't really the relapse itself but the thoughts of watching porn. I'm so afraid to fall for those urges after more than 9 months being free from porn. Over these last few days being at home I've had a voice in the back of my head trying to convince me to do it in a way I haven't experienced in a long time. I'm really happy to hear that. Being almost a month in and not having any desires is a sign that you can go much further.
Sorry to bother you @Desperate_Warrior But what's the status of IGY's team... Coz u know... I bet my money on him. (Just saying)
I love such curiosity OK I am bug-free(the programmers meaning ) right now, I brought the blocking methods way to another level xD Now I can't open any triggering thing through my phone unless I reset it, and can't reset it because I blocked all ways that lead to that, So I have to format my PC to format my phone in order to get moment of pleasure
I am sorry for what happened. I think hot showers will increase the urges. Sleeping and getting up moments are most triggering to me. Try to find a solution to stop eliminate that
I was teamed up with IGY. Unfortunately he got banned from the forum for to me unknown reasons. So there has been changes in the team setups. Thank you! I'll have to find a way to avoid it.
Well he was only temporarily banned... He came back and decided to delete his account. I am sure he did it for the best. And he wasn't a bad guy, so using the word banned is not the right impression for him. I have an inkling of the reason he decided to do it. But it's none of my business. Alexander has decided to reserve his username so that nobody trolls with it. And that says what kind of Fapastronaut he was. He will be missed. Sorry to hear about it all. Who's your new teammate... Or are you going solo?
The first time I had sex, only this I want to count as a strike.. that means my aim is just to restrain from watching porn & masturbating.. from my next sex experiences I will not count as strikes.
