THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

I have a method I learned in a recovery book. It's asking yourself: "What is this really?" It's basically trying to get to the bones of why this is happening.
For instance: why are you calling this woman milf, and not what she really is, a real woman?
What is it that turns you on when you talk to her?
Is this a woman you'd date to be with or it's just a fantasy coming true? Would she agree to meet in person?

 

Congratulations on Super Saiyan 3!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

2 Day's Free of PMO.

Keep Training!

@Against_the_demon_in_myself Thank you brother, we both do!

@JB39 Well done Saiyan! Congrats on ascending !

 

Reporting in day 54

Check my facebook friend requests and someone called "Portgas D. Ace" sends a request, which is a character from One Piece. I thought maybe he likes anime. Wrong! It was a trap, a cunning one too. The first thing on his feed was a naked woman and a porn video. What the hell!? I deleted his request and the window. Facebook is not safe, too much spam.

 

@JB39, congratulations, man!

Day 1

 

Congrats, dude!

 

Day 5, I got sick for two days, so terrible, Dopamine too much let me hard to go sleep.

 

Day 30!

 

Day 430!

 

I get to say day 55 today

I just read a post of a guy getting so desperate that he went on a dating app looking for a hook up. It didn't turn out well for him to say the least. Another reason to avoid dating apps.

 

Very great process. I’ll try it now.

What is this really?
Why am I calling this woman a milf? Because she has two kids already and in the most carnal part of my mind this shows me she is maternal, feminine and able to produce and I feel attracted to her as a result.

What is it that turns me on when I talk to her?
She seems very emotive and caring, emotionally available and loves her children. I can’t explain it, just that I find her maternal capacity hot, maybe because I want kids one day with a woman who is able to be in her feminine.

Is this a woman I’d date to be with, or just a fantasy coming true?
I’m not sure yet. But I met her on a dating app and she has made it clear her intention is to find a partner. I’d like to keep getting to know her and see if our personalities are compatible to dispel any fantasies in my own mind. However, if we share enough common ground and there’s compatibility I would be open to dating her.

Would she be open to meeting in person? Yes, she has already expressed interest and attraction. It seems the ball is in my court at this point as to creating some healthy boundaries and leading from the heart.

What is this really? I see her as a potential dating candidate and that stirs up my avoidance and fear of intimacy stuff. I’m afraid she’ll want too much, or won’t meet my expectations so I keep things at arms length to prevent getting hurt or smothered.


Thank you for this beautiful process brother

 

Grateful for your experience brother. Keep up the great work!

 

Day 37 saiyans

Still working on a good sleep schedule. Good news is though last night I only got around 6.5 hours and don't really feel tired. I trained last night so maybe that's why. My training has been getting consistent again with weight lifting. Trying to do at least 5 days a week, beek training calisthenics everyday. Still have yet to get back to reading, but made a promise to myself to start back up today. Keep going saiyans
Fight or die!

@JB39 congrats brother. Super saiyan 3. Keep going, onwards to ultra instinct

 

It’s been 6 days since last slip into porn, but only 1 day since fapping so I’m marking my streak there. I had to get clear on my bottom lines.
As the “E a s y P e a s y M e t h o d” goes, “I am a non-user” has become my mantra.
How is this behavior of being a user conveyed over into other aspects of my life? Even when I cease porn use there are other ways I’ve found to use people places and things for a quick dopamine hit. I get to ask myself as brother JB39 shared in his wisdom “what is this really about?”
How has my using behavior hurt other people? How can I operate now from a place of non-user on all levels of life in order to be a part of the cure rather than contributing to dis-ease?

Therefore I consider the last fap to be another case of using fantasy for a quick hit of pleasure to numb out and avoid. I set my goal at hard mode. No fapping for 120 days before review in order to get a full reboot.
Here we go, day 1


(悟) Low Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE ◄

 

I think those are good questions to ask that can lead to healing.

 

Congratulations Warrior

 

Day 385
Go and Get it

 

Day 1.

 

Has anyone watched Death Note? Imagine that its a Sex Note, and that you get to have sex with anyone you want. That would essentially be like pmo addiction. But now it's the real thing, and the Note convinces the people you want to have sex with that they're in love with you. This is like porn, where you get to see all those naked bodies, anything you want without any real relationship or consent. Like Light Yagami thinking of himself as a death God, in a way our addicted brains might be thinking itself a sex God. It screws up our expectations for what sex and relationships should be like, and removes from our mind that there is a whole other person with the same feelings and self ownership that we have. The person that we desire for sex then gets turned into an object of judgement.

 

3 days free of PMO, day 4 in progress.
@JB39 congratulation on SS3 brother, that's a great achievement!
@Dovahkin101 great thought experiment the sex-note one. P really does mess up the way we perceive ourselves and reality.