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Day 383

 

Day 5

 

Day 35 saiyans

My sleep schedule is still a mess, partly due to my own fault. Ive been feeling really angry, mostly at my self for all the disrespect ive allowed in the past, so many things ive been complacent too, yet never spoke up. Part of it is the usual, fear, anxiety, peer pressure etc, but the root cause Ive always known to be pmo. Pmo truly robs us off our essence and lets be honest makes us into a bitch. No more, keep going saiyans
Fight or die

 

Day 4

I woke up early and took time to practice Japanese language. I did a 15 minute meditation. And I finally got to change my looks, I went for a dreadhawk (mohawk with dreadlocks.. lol). Tomorrow I'll be heading back to training in CrossFit, and I'll be spending more time being productive.

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

1 Day Free of PMO.

Keep Training!

 

Day 99. Being busy with work stuf.
A bit driven by emotions, angry and tired. I need more sleep but my schedule is a mess, I have little to no control over my time. For the time I have control I tend to cram to many things to the detriment of sleep.
Stay strong saiyan fighters!

 

It has been 9 days since I last updated. It was a rough week, anyway... long story short, I am back, day 0.

 

Brothers I’m seeking input on this current situation. I haven’t looked at porn or had the urge since my last slip. In other news however I’ve been talking to a milf I find attractive and she seems to be interested in me as well. We haven’t had sex or anything but I find myself getting a boner when we talk. I fantasized about sex with her while showering this morning and again tonight and fapped. Flexed kegels and retained so no seed was spilled, but I have still fapped 3 times since this began. Just want to be open honest and transparent about where I’m at

 

Day 29!

 

Checking in day 4!

 

Day 429!

 

Day 1

 

Day 384

 

Day 166

Have a comfortable life style... working from home and always going to the gym during the day. Some days I work (really) hard and even (want to) pick some things up in the weekend. Now it is a bit more relaxed so I just take some time to take a nap on the couch and read a book. Sleep is stable and oke-isch, but I wish I could sleep in a bit longer than waking up at 6AM every single day... on the bright side I got long productive days this way.

No urges or anything, would sure like to have sex again with a real woman but it will happen again soon. Got a date planned for coming Thursday

 

Day 36 saiyans

Been feeling tired, sleep schedule is still a mess. Honestly saiyans, I think sleep is the most underrated and most powerful tool in our arsenal, not just for training, but for our mental strength as well. Keep going saiyans.
Fight or die!

 

2 days free of PMO, day 3 in progress.
Making some progress understanding what ails me psychologically. Will put more work on psychology exercises.
@DRAGON_ well done on showing courage and asking the girl out! Also bravo on finding the strength to not relapse.
@Redemptionisrequired get up again brother, you have it in you to do great and be healthy.

 

Day 5. I woke up early in the morning to train in CrossFit. And let me tell ya, the workout today was hell, I almost passed out with dizzyness.

I spent 15 minutes of meditation and practicing Japanese language.

I gotta take my bike to get it fixed, so I can then get to ride it all the way to the CrossFit box instead of walking because the road is very dangerous to walk on.

I'm gonna be spending some time reading books to improve my mind and vocabulary.

 

Day 31!

 

Day 100!
Happy to have reached this far. This forum made all the difference between my many previous failed attempts and this current one.
Two points I wanted to make. One is something I realized only a few days ago. In my first few weeks of reboot I was feeling like shit. Nothing was giving me any pleasure, nothing was good enough compared with the levels the dopamine and ΔFosB my brain was used to. With time this has damped, it didn't disappeared completely, but I don't have that intense dissatisfaction with everything anymore. Sometimes I am very angry, but this is more an annoyance than lack of satisfaction. I hope this makes sense.

Second point is that I really don't feel I am cured / rebooted yet. Sure, I feel stronger, I have more clarity and confidence. This means that regardless of the task I know I can deliver high quality results, compared to the old times when I would always be worried I would fail. I am more present with my wife and child, having conversations I never though I would have with them.
But on the other side I am still getting triggers, sometimes I catch my mind thinking of porn and find it hard not to objectify women. Still being awkward when talking with strangers. I guess many of these are just my personal traits? Or maybe I need more time to reboot...

Anyway, will keep fighting, I hope I will never use this poison again.

Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!