The Mighty That Fell ~ Squeaky Soul's Journal

You guys are incredible! Thanks for the support.

I went to a prayer group earlier, and I now realize what I have to do. I have to get busy, stay vigilent, read the bible, pray more, and not take for granted the little thinfs we all enjoy in our life.

~SS

 

Thank you!!! You're the best AP. And I'm not just saying that, you truley are!!!!!!!

~SS

 

Thanks Nobrainer! Thanks for all the help in the past!

~SS

 

Thanks bucko!

~SS

 

Reading this brought a tear to my eye.

I miss you None! And I miss seeing your posts in our old group. We all had a good thing going. Four months clean in a week... Thanks be to God!

~SS

 

@rtw623!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my god! How are you doing?

 

I checked out your journal rtw...

Today was alright,

Idol time, idol hands. Iwatched some videos from Buzzfeed that were sexual in nature, so I quickly got out of that. I just hope I'm not rounding the drain. Slowly coming to a relapse...

What a nasty word! "Relapse..." Gross!

I've been feeling amazing lately, but today I felt strange. After seeing some old friends I hadn't seen in forever, I felt awkward. After they left I had this short feeling of depression. I finally shook it when I watched a movie with my dad.

Talked to another old friend on the phone and I felt oddly quiet. Then, after I hung up with him, another old friend called, and I actually felt more confident. Weird... I guess it just took me a while to open up to people today.

~SS

 

REGAINING MY MIGHT!!!

~IRON SOUL

 

Hey, so um... I just got sent nudes.

I'm going to copy and paste the message I sent to my AP cuz I'm too lazy to type it up again.

~SS

 

Message sent to IGY (best AP in the world. Sorry everyone, he's my AP). Slightly altered, just to keep some explicit details out. You're not missing much.

"Actually, yes, but nothing I couldn't handle...

Whooooooo... today was a crazy day... It's a long story, and I will be 100% accurate and honest with the chain of events

So, there's this girl that was in my old photography class. My photograpy teacher, to keep us creative, got us together on facebook. Now, there's this one girl... of course, always "this one girl" that gets me into trouble.

She started private messaging me. She said my pictures that I posted on the school website and facebook page was nice. Then, after I hadn't responded, she said, "You're really cute." And I responded, "Thanks beautiful." Like I normally would with the ladies. They compliment and/or flirt with me, I dish it right back <3.

Then we started talking about our interests, to which I discover that she's an outdoorsy type, just like me. I thought that was very attractive, so I let her know. Previously, she had been sending me a lot of selfies, and a picture of a deer she hunted, and a fish she caught on her own, then, she sent me a picture of her belly button piercing... except this was a picture of her entire body in a bikini, and I couldn't even see the belly button piercing, though I was trying to search for it.

I believe I got a bit carried away. Yeah , I was aroused, but I should've changed the subject. Instead, I complimented her again, by saying, "I have to admit, you have a nice body." I am not going to lie, she actually did. Bringing it back to me letting her now I was attracted to her outdoorsy interests... I said, "It's haawt that you like fishing." Sounds stupid right? I meant it as a joke, but of course, over messaging feelings cannot be conveyed.... She then sent me a nude photo of herself!!!!!! I clicked out of the picture she sent. I said, "Oh, cool belly button piercing." Then I changed the subject back to fishing, sent her a picture of my goldfish that I caught last time I went fishing, she said it was cool, I said, "Thanks breeeeh," Hahahaa, and she never responded.

What the fuck do you think of that little adventure??? Hahahaha! Crazy right? Like I said, 100% accurate, I left no details out."

What do you think? I'm still struggling whether I was in the wrong or not.

~SS

 

SO everything has been pretty good lately...

I'm liking the four months of sobriety.

~SS