Day 7 No P or M , Day 0 no O , had a wet dream !!! Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan i feel like a Villain about to have an awakening in conscience and save the world !!!
The Keymaker = 140-169 days You're unlocking the secrets of no PMO. You've accessed a renewed confidence, better physical appearance, increased mental strength. There is more to find. Use the keys to unlock more treasures.
Resistance Operative = 14-20 days You've taken the Red Pill, and now you've become awake. Unfortunately, in this battle against the Porn Matrix, there's no time to rest. The moment you're awakened, you're an operative in the Human Resistance versus the Porn Matrix. Haven't updated in a while, and.. Reboot Day 0
Day 116. Yes this is totally true, at day 116 I can tell you that my life-style had changed. In the past, besides watching porn and masturbate I used to go to strip clubs and visit prostitutes (hookers) because I was really addicted to sex in all its forms. I also used to have sex with trans-women exposing me to a high risk. Fortunately, now I am dating a real women and I had overcome my past. Now I am searching to become The Chosen One (365 days neither porn nor masturbation)
I have a question regarding the psychological aspect of escapism and choosing to PMO from various frustrations. I might sound like making this stuff up very immaturely in my mind but I cannot deny that to some extent I have bothered myself with it way more than the context of the problem. There is this girl that I sort of developed a crush on in 2021 for a meanwhile. It was really weird that I would like her because I never had intentional likeability in a crush manner towards the person. However, I did admired her as a person for some reason in the way they carried themselves but that is all. I felt like a creep when I had a feeling of liking them much later as I have known this person since a long time (4 years plus 6 years long distance minimal contact) even before I developed a crush towards them. The feeling of creepiness is natural as this person is actually one of my friends ex girlfriend. To add onto it, they were in a long distance relationship at the time I had feelings for her. (I know; creep level max, please do not judge me, I myself was shocked at after this phase was over at what was I even thinking when I felt this way) Moving on, 2 years have gone by and they are married now. I feel like such a creep ass person that I did not even had the guts to tell them about it because clearly there was no point as it is a laughing matter, I myself would laugh at the strangeness/creepiness of it. However, I do mean well for the person and all but contrary to it, I did not talk with them even as a normal friend/connection. They are in my social media and also had connected with me on another work social media meanwhile when this all happened that is when I went to meet them as an excuse with couple of friends meetup within a span of two months of meeting them. Therefore, they clearly knew that something is wrong in my head.(that is maybe I am trying to sleep with them but I was not, I was just not in my right mindset and just impulsively went with the flow to meetup regardless of any thought of what or why I am doing it) Cut to the problem, I have been thinking of them weirdly correlating to when I am not in this PMO mess. Whenever I do like some amount of no PMO days, I feel like I need to talk to her normally about it but it is unnecessary, creepy and strange at this point to tell them that I like them knowing they are married and my friends ex. Honestly, I am just letting my bullshit thought out of my mind. I know how stupid it is, how contrary it is to my actions as I am having this PMO problem as well which makes mindset or crush or anything to be mere lust and I acknowledge that it maybe that but me myself acknowledging that it is lust makes me feel even more creepy about it as why would I feel this way about her. Nonetheless, I wanted to inquire if any of you feels victim to this general “thought fight” when you abstain and then use PMO as an escape. Is it necessary to deal with this problem by acting on this thought? That is by telling them atleast something or can it be done by moving away from any such thought at all? I want to do the later approach but I am struggling. Please note that this incident I am saying is one example, I am not victimizing myself or blaming any person for my thing. This is the mindset I have been stuck with in the past as well for my own previous relationship I was in (this was a much long period as well but my relationship had turned ugly after she cheated on me but she only told me that she slept with a guy when we were in long distance and after that it continued which she called a “phase” but that relationship went downhill after that) or any other girl that I liked in the past (it was not this long time period for other girls). I kind of know that solution is to move away from all such thoughts but I have been failing in doing so, hopefully me journalling it out of my head would atleast help in some sense.
