KnightOfThe7thOrder

When will dawn come up?

'The darkest hour is always before dawn'

Failed miserably... Just could not stop. Moreover, I am edging. So I have decided to start a post with updates every day. Going to succeed

Ok failed quite a lot. It is tiring. Let's give it a really hard try

I have failed thrice already. No quits. No turning back. Doubling down in the fight. I have seen loss. Let my destiny now see victory.

Right now just do not want to lose my the day count

Retaining might be more effective if I could feel I am actually converting my urges towards productive uses.

It feels good to know that One Month of retaining from PMO is complete. Still, a lot of journey remains in front of me. I know I can do it.

Plus I do not feel weak physically which use to happen after I masturbated watching porn. I just need to make the best use of my energy now

Even if the benefits of NoFap do not come up I have gained confidence in myself a little bit. If I can do 30 days, I surely can do 90 days.

A few more days and one month without PMO is almost complete. Need to be careful still. But I believe I will make it.

The biggest problem, at present, is suddenly feeling sexual desires for some random girl or woman.

All sorts of sexual thoughts are coming up. The worst part is I know some of them and we are like good friends.

It is wrong. Very wrong. I am ashamed of this behavior of mine.

I believe it will end. Just, hopefully, rather fast. I hope God can forgive me and I do not want to lose my friends.

The Night is always Darkest Before the Dawn