Day 21 It is a good idea for most of the members here to check in every day. Not for me but I just do it. No not at all. I wasn't saying you were judging at all. Just asking a question and that was all. I see, well we will see because again as I said this isn't sprint. This is hard mode. This is a marathon so I'm not sure if the same people will stick around longer besides a few like yourself including me. But again, people are busy so that is understandable. You have the others who are doing on their own and checking in later and avoiding here because that is their strategy. Then the obvious, they are doing it on their own and but they quit because of a relapse. Lastly, possibly they are in a vacation or sorts. I believe some will eventually come back because they can't do it on their own. They will come around. Here is the encouragement for the fellowship brothers, if you quit you can always come back later and do it again here. Maybe you need to figure out your stuff or get rid of stuff before starting again. While your breathing, you still have a chance. If you quit entirely then you lose for good. Don't quit. Do___ __it. Just my thoughts.
Exactly what I have been wondering as well. If your too busy, there no possible way to PMO. That is how it is suppose to be. But when you are alone practice discipline Men of the West or whatever side you want call yourself
When I break Intermittent fasting I end up feeling like sh*t. Because basically Im eating without being hungry, I'm eating due anxiety or social pressure... Sick of this. Gonna try to never let this happen again.. Also won't drink coffee unless I really need the extra energy I feel like my life is messed up right now. My brain is attacking me in every possible angle. The good news is I don't have any urges, won't betray God over this crap. The bad news is I feel somewhat depressed I don't know why but I'm having sexual or violent dreams lately (with wet dreams included). Probably I'm doing a lot of things wrong. Starting from bad alimentation and poor exercise
Checking in Fellowship friends! 75 Days Free of PMO. A good day overall yesterday, challenging the negative ways of thinking. I plan to continue in my path today, meditation, exposure, exercise, reading and work. Little by little, if you compare day to day it may not be much but compare a year from now you are looking at a compound effect. Let's make the last week of September count! "Today is a new day. It is a day you have never seen before and a day you will never see again. Stop telling yourself the "same crap, different day" lie! How many days has that lie stolen from you? Seize the wonder and uniqueness of today! Recognize that throughout this beautiful day, you have an incredible amount of opportunities to move your life in the direction you want it to go." -Dr. Steve Maraboli Stay strong! 75 days – Shadowfax, the chieftain of the race of the Mearas, the greatest horses of Middle Earth, comes to your aid. Shadowfax is capable of comprehending human speech and runs faster than the wind. @Baki Hanma Awesome work on getting to 150 brother! @Toni7 Congrats on reaching 50 days brother! @kaerhal Come back soon brother, don't let the relapse take you away in isolation.
Hey brother , you are amazing. Because You are four years younger than me. When I was your age , I watched lot of P stuff due to my unawareness about p***n . When comparing your age, You have gotten a great decision. I'm very happy. If you omit these p***n stuff in your life , you have a great future. Keep grinding
Day 151 I think our leader @RiseToGreatness has gone a vacation or He is busy with his works. Anyway We hope his comeback
Hi everyone, new member here, I’d like to join this challenge. I guess that means that right now I’m standing in the doorway of bag end, wondering where my feet are going to carry me.
Day 416 Congratulations @Baki Hanma & @Toni7 ! Also congrats @kaerhal on your comeback Welcome to the fellowship @daddyG1981
Checking in. Following what brother @LLOYYD said. Bilbo needed the guidance of Gandalf to help him, an accountability partner to help him find his way to give up the ring for good. Then Bilbo had to start a new journey, a new project, set a new goal for himself. Thanks for being there, Fellowship!
Day 1 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 244 out of 268. I do not have much motivation to check in right now, but I figure at least once a week is going to help me not backslide while I'm dealing with life. Good advice brother, and thanks for the support and the hug. No, my porn issues are actually very mild and incidental to masturbation, which arose from the void in my most intimate relationship. We gave it a good 21-year effort and made a beautiful family together, and will part as friends and coparents to some wonderful children, but my wife finally discovered/admitted that she is a lesbian and is going to pursue a different course with that in mind. It explains why our sexual relationship never worked better than any of the years of therapy and soul searching. No hard feelings for her, but the feelings of loss and disappointment and discouragement are definitely hard. Thank you my brother. I am still wrapping my head around the logistical side of this and haven't even been able to talk to all of my own family yet. A good therapist is on my to do list, but I honestly think I will need to get some living arrangments worked out and some clarity about what is going to happen with our kids and finances before I am ready to work on the psychological trauma with a professional. Great advice though, and much appreciated.
Day 13: Without having put the ring on(watched porn). Made it to Rivendell I am an Elf now! Indeed I feel more confident and strong without filling my mind with those fake images. I managed to catchup my friday workout and assignments: - Wake up at 5.30 - Cold bath's - Yoga and breathing exercises. - meditation - Upper/lowerbody workout in evening. - read a book - no watching youtube (Barley) - school studies today again everything was also accomplished. But the itch to watch those review channels on Youtube is really gnawing at me. But I am in control, I must remember this and bend my body to my will. I'll hold strong in a week or so it should be good, its just another illusion of the ring to waste my time. 167 more days for Glory!!!. Stay strong friends!!
Day 1 complete! Usually the chaser effect does not attack me too strongly after a reset, but today has been an exception. I am very thankful that it is Sunday, the Lord's Day, because I think that really helped me pull through without giving in to temptation again. A streak is like any building: the foundation must be absolutely solid. If there are any cracks in the foundation, you cannot construct a tall building; it will all come crashing to the ground very quickly. @daddyG1981 Welcome! And @kaerhal Welcome back! This fight will never not be worth it. Both of you, one way or another, seem to have realized that. Good luck! St. Augustine of Hippo, pray for us!
8 days – Gildor Inglorion, an Elf, crosses your path causing a Nazgûl that was chasing you to flee. You stay the night with his company of Elves talking about your struggles with PMO. "Courage is found in unlikely places" he says. He gives you an Hithlain rope, a magical rope, light and flexible, yet extremely strong. Quest Item – Hithlain rope
Day 9 So far so good. Today for the first time in my adult life I forgot my phone at home before going to work, so while it was super boring to sit in the subway without headphones… I know that I won’t have any way to PMO today at work, and that is just fun to have this fear removed from my head. **trigger warning** Yesterday I heard an amazing episode of a Reboot podcast called “Consider before Consuming”. So if you are ready to feel kind of disgusted with yourself and want to cry a little bit (at least that was my feeling after listening to this episode) I really recommend it. https://open.spotify.com/episode/1KEgfVIhJ6ZiLdTqXIxdev?si=e7edf7e67494421a They interview a woman who was a victim of the “GirlsDoPorn” channel. For those who don’t know, it was a really popular channel for “armature” girls. And I used to watch it all the time. It was later discovered that it was a huge sex traffic operation and that the happy 1 hour video that want public was a part of a 12 or sometimes 24 hours of a rape sessions that was just edited really well. The man behind “GirlsDoPorn” was just sentenced for 20 years in prison for rape and Sex trafficking. I’ve always told myself that the most “high level” porn was fine, because the girls get paid well over there, and that the most “armature” was also fine because it’s just "fun" and people love to show themselves. But the more I hear about what happened behind the scenes, the more I feel sick for supporting this. There is something just sick about the fact that I’ve seen and even bookmarked rape videos.
Day 36 no PMO. Headed out of town today for a three night trip on my own. I have relapsed on this trip in the past but I’m hoping that my new commitment to “this actually doesn’t make me feel better… it makes me feel worse” will get me through. I’ll likely feel alone, isolated and unloved on this trip and want to use PMO to comfort myself but it’s a trap. PMO will make me feel more alone, more isolated and more unloved. Just need to be able to remember that in the moment.
