I'm back yo after school work and stuff. Man ever since my autumn term holidays I've had stress. So much stress about studies, my nofap journey, people at my school, trying to make new friends and still keeping in contact with the old ones. I want to get close with the new girls in my school coz I don't really have any close friends who are girls, but it's so much stress sometimes. There's also this one girl who every time I see talking to another guy I feel so jealous, I hate the feeling, I feel like I'm searching for something, I don't know what. And why does the thought of becoming distant from her scare me so much? So many questions and I don't have the answers or maybe I do? One thing I know for sure is that there is too much going on in my head and I gotta somehow take it one step at a time.
I am currently a Jedi night, whether it shows it or not, and its amazing. I've found that all you have to do, is just not think about masturbation or anything sexual, and you barely even get urges. This is the first time in like 5 or 6 years, that ive been able to complete NNN and it is amazing. I will also complete it successfully for the rest of my life, because im never going back.