The beginning

Hello there,Me 25 yrs old,male and straight.
i am in a medical school right now,
Right now i am an below average student but i want to change that.
i would hv been more excited coming here, had not i suffered this masterbation addiction.
I started viewing Porn since 6th class. At first I was amazed ,thrilled because I thought that it was something Taboo
I seriously tell you I learnt this fapping habit two years ago that time I didn't know what I was getting into
Now it's been 3 years and I am just totally hooked in I am a junky who can't stop.
I am trapped in a repeated cycle of PMO. In my typical masturbation session I do the edging phenomena, till I can hold no more
I really don't want to go to the orgas* state,'cause it sucks out the marrow of life
but when you have reached the climax , it's really hard to get down,
and when it comes out! all my maleness in 1.34 ml!
I feel like a dead person I feel like I have lost the lust for life
I have nothing to hide and I will exactly tell you everything what's going on

I am here because I want to change my life fulfill my vision because vision is everything
Every time I masturbate I lose self confidence and my dedication towards vision
Right now I am in the middle of my college years I may be below average but I just want to finish strong and sucessful
So here I am,
in the beginning

 

thanks man! means so much