I joined a couple of days ago and i see a lot of people here writing that they are contemplating suicide. First of all i hope that nobody follows through with it , EVER! I myself had those thoughts years and years ago when i was at the age 18-20 i believe. Now i am 25 , is my life perfect? fuck no! and it never will be because that's life. But i have seen so much death around me that i can tell you 100% that it is never the answer , without knowing your story and who you are and what you been through. I had one my best friends jump of the roof and kill himself because he was struggling with depression , anxiety and hocd. I know that he was just trying to end his suffering , and in someway he did. But you have NO IDEA! what his death caused to the people around him. Seeing his mother and brother cry and weep , me and all of his friends were broken , not for a week and not for 2 or 3 months but until this day i remember him and i miss him and it's one of the hardest fucking things i ever had to go through in my life! Having one of your best friends commit suicide at the age of 20 is horrible , and the worst thing is you never see it coming. I saw my father coming off my building roof because he wanted to jump and commit suicide after him and my mother wanted to get a divorce. My mom woke me up at 5am to go search for him because he was missing , when i went out he saw me and thank god couldn't follow through. My mother was on pills because of depression , i know a friend of mine that shot himself in the head. Guys don't do it! EVER! i beg you , that's not the answer! Unfortunately after these tragic deaths and situations i never even for a moment think about suicide ever again in my life , i just thank god im alive each day. I've seen the consequeneces , hell i felt them and i still do as i write this and i can't stop crying. Please take care of yourself , talk to someone wether it's a friend or a family member or a psychatrist or anybody you feel like can understand what you're going through. Have a blessed day!