I always read i will always be addicted, i always have to fight. I AM! Did you know that you can decide what you are? That you dont have to identify with the history of yourself? That by repeating your story you strenghten your ego and that you make it more hard for yourself than you have to? This is the case. You can be whatever you want. In spiritual practise you learn, no you feel its all a suit you are wearing. Nothing more. You are not your past, not even your charakter and not your wins and losts. You are the Soul. You are the awerness! (I recommend to read Power of Now) Its really absurd that they teach this in the 12 steps programs worldwide. ,,I am John and I am an alcoholic.'' Yeah repeat that a thousand times and you will stay like that. I thought I am shy, weak, i cant get woman, ever be wealthy and so on... Now I know the opposite. Just watch your thoughts and what messages you give out to the universe. The next time you catch yourself identifing with your problem just twist it up. I am a healthy dude who lives pornfree because i enjoy having real sex! Period.