Sissy hypno addiction

Hi,

SP (S1ssy p0rn) is very bad stuff.
For me it's the most wicked kind of p0rn created (although I have to admit that every kind of porn is very destructive).

I was involved myself by SP and found my way out of the pull of it. It's now more than 2 years ago I "used" it for the last time. It's behind me.
I wrote a very lot of information in my journal.
Maybe it can inspire you to make the right steps.

 

I don't know what it's like to PMO to niche quirks like that. I can only imagine, based off the reasoning from Roady's post that it's way worse than the regular stuff. I'll follow your journey and hopefully, encourage you along the way.

 

Obviously, it's a dangerous expectation. It's not realistic. Hopefully, you're able to get out of this harmful addiction. If the sentiment means anything to you, I'll pray for you tonight.

 

I can really relate to this. I have fallen into this fetish before and it is exactly how it makes me feel. It makes you question things because "Why am I doing something that I actually find so repulsive?"

I read a good post somewhere which describes how the pattern works. Basically, the arousal comes not from doing something you're naturally into, but rather from doing something you're not supposed to. The adjective which defines this kind of action is "transgressive". It's precisely because deep down you know it's against your nature, and seen as deviant by society, etc. that it sparks a certain kind of taboo arousal.

The problem with it is if you let the pattern reinforce itself through many PMO sessions, you start to wonder if maybe you really are attracted to that thing (even though the repulsion continues to emerge post-PMO). This can lead to a kind of personality-in-conflict where you know you just want a normal relationship with a cute girlfriend, but your arousal center has shifted to the opposite of that i.e. this awful submissive/sissy stuff.

Even worse than that, the hypno content takes advantage of your ever-lowering self-esteem and makes you think you're dependent on that warped sexuality now to even be aroused, thus deepening the cycle.

Anyway I have had my problems with this stuff and I think the only way out is to block that initial dopamine rush by thinking of how sickened you will feel later about yourself, and instead make choices that strengthen your self-image, and reinforce who you really want to be and what you truly want out of a relationship.

 

This is spot on, I personally never got into SP, but I can relate this to other extreme things that I got into.

Basically it’s all fundamental sexual conditioning. You desensitize and seek something more taboo/forbidden that can raise dopamine levels and you become aroused due to this shock/disgust/perverted rush, and when you orgasm to it, you have now formed a connection that this porn equals orgasm. Repeat this cycle and you’ll keep strengthening this unnatural and artificial connection. Now to end this conditioning, you need to source where it gets it’s fuel, and the fuel is obviously porn, you continue to watch porn and your brain will continue to seek this porn because your brain has conditioned to associate it with orgasm. You remove porn for awhile, allow your dopamine levels to balance out again because porn abuse just overloads your dopamine and runs it completely dry, then rewire.

Whatever is porn induced will leave you, because it’s an artificially conditioned response, by removing the reinforcement (porn) the conditioning will weaken, thus leading to the conditioning either eradicating or becoming inactive. The reason I say becoming inactive is because some say a neural connection never goes away, but from what I’ve seen around here, a lot of people do porn induced fetishes do become absolutely repulsive to them again after awhile from porn, even I have experienced it, but you must go long enough to fully eradicate that conditioning and also rewires properly.

 

I can relate too. It's really ugly to be addicted to that stuff. You can never get enough of that crack. Stay strong

 

Yea you can rewire, I went down that rabbit whole and ended up visiting the T escorts. Hypnosis sessions, micro dosing and forgiving myself has really helped me. I don’t find them attractive any more and see the masculinity that repulses me. We concentrated on the pheromones and stubble etc in hypnosis and it made me feel sick last time I viewed that stuff. But having access to porn again last week I started drifting off into weird hardcore femdom stuff which was getting worse. So have got adult locks applied again and am feeling better. Shakes you up that shit poison for the soul.

 

What’s up Wave, I think we spoke earlier this year about how you were struggling with getting rid of Porn induced tastes.

How are you doing now?

 

Hi dude, yea some big shifts and changes in taste. The trans thing doesn’t seem to hold the taboo element as much. I think my brain associates it with pain too. Even in a lot of sessions I’d stop and think what am I doing if they were slightly masculine or I’d do a runner at the door if didn’t look like there pictures. The sessions were starting to get a lot bigger gaps between them and it was one offs rather than a binge. I called one about 3/4 weeks ago for a session, one I’d stopped mid session upset and frantic saying I’m not doing this to myself any more why am I punishing myself. I told her I was in a better place and she said she’d look after me. On the way I said to myself “ do you really want to do this?” And I replied “ No not really” I text her and said sorry to mess her about but it will fuck me up again and have problems etc. She wished me luck and sent love. I was told by one that there’s a lot of suicide in that world from customers and trans. I also experienced them smoking crck a good few times. So all the money they’re making is going on surgery, designer handbags and drgs. They’re in a messed up cycle themselves and will seriously struggle to make anywhere near that money in another job. The whole thing is revolting really. But I was so hooked on the flood and intensity of searching and visiting them the rush it gave me was stronger than anything I’d took in my younger partying days.
Weirdly it started with femdom for years and trans wasn’t even a consideration but after years of trying to get a good femdom experience stumbled across trans. It was a short cut to the dopamine and a lot more reliable. They’d answer straight away run it like a business and know how men’s minds worked. They wouldn’t say I’ve got a spot next Tuesday or only message 3/4 hours later. Seriously most of these women escorts are terrible: so called doms being all unsure of themselves and asking what and how they should dominated you kind of misses the point. You become an expert/fussy conisauer and want more and only the best. But coming off the trans went for a normal brothel and was recommended an escort that did dom I thought I’d try it out for old time sakes for a bit of cheeky exploring. But 2 of them were really good at it using poppers(liquid gold) to mess you up more. That stuff really made me loose inhibitions and as soon as I’d cum felt disgusted with myself, out of control and in debt with it all. But the experiences were very pro and intense. I also visited a high end dom dungeon and did the dominant teacher thing but ended up telling her I wanted to really do her. I ended up barring myself after and when called back she said I’d frightened the dom a bit! The other place was harder to get barre and they’d make a joke “ just call us when you want letting back in. This made me more turned on how selfish they were being and made me fancy the evil boss woman a bit! She did mention she’d been on the receiving end of men. Which makes me realise the best ones are very sour and enjoy messing men up as they e been abused also. I messaged her and said I was near suicide with all that crap and got a counsellor to send an email. I haven’t had a professional dom experience in a couple of months now and the lust for it is down atm. I binged a week ago on porn. Which I haven’t done in about a year or more. The trans in there didn’t do it for me and the hypno sissy stuff was something I’d escaped from and didn’t want mess with again. But soon got back into my femdom and even poppers training. I even got a bottle and watched one of these videos but half way through stopped and thought what is this twisted self harming sh!t and tipped the bottle down the toilet. It still really messed me up for a bit and am just getting back on top of things. Guess there always going to be a dangerous slippery slope if I decide to play in that world. Sorry for the long post hope you’re doing well

 

Wow bro what a fucking story.

It’s good that you realized how harmful that cycle is for you.

First things first, I think you need to take a break from all sexual stimulation for a long time. Don’t even think about. Give your brain a detox, start to desexualize your entire mind, really try to focus on rebooting your brain.

If the things porn led you too through escalation cause so much discomfort and disgust and hate for yourself, this is self abuse, and this is a huge sign that this is all addiction related, and it’s all connected back to the drug (porn) that you were using.

Do not talk to those people anymore, clean up every faucet of your life that you need to clean up. Really focus on starting fresh and forgive your past.

 

That sounds really terrible, im sorry man. Im not sure if i can provide any good advice, but im in a similar situation. Talking to people really helps, not just online, but anywhere. Just remember who you want to be, and make it happen. Its either stop SP or not. There is no in between.

 

Can someone explain the hypnosis part of this to me? I'm currently learning about hypnosis and planning to start my own practice. Do you go into a hypnotic state and get messages put in your subconscious, or not literal hypnosis?

 

I explained the videos to my hypnotist and he said they’re brainwashing and not to mess about with them. I read in a book on anger that we’re more suggestible when we’re in a state of shock. So I guess a penis flashing up when you’re getting turned on by women is shocking and planting the seed into our subconscious mind. Also there’s the straight you engrossed in all these women and then the odd flash of something gay pops up you’re about to turn it off but bang back to the nice women again. It’s like psychopathies and narcissistic abuse. Push your boundaries then back to being nice again, a bit gaslighty!

 

Interesting... I'm curious, but won't dare watch it. I am used to thinking of hypnosis as going into a meditative state and having new ideas sugested to you/ridding yourself of bad subconcious programing.

 

I guess for me it acted like a drug and experience where i could just
let go completely of control and escape my pain, pressure and nagging mind. But subconsciously resonated with low core beliefs. I imagine it’s similar to self harm. But also there’s the chasing that more intense orgasm and bigger hit of dopamine.

 

I'm sure almost everyone on this site relates to this post.

Well if the sissy hypno did put a subconscious program in you guys, it is theoretically possible to remove it if you can figure out what it is. You react to certain things differently and feel differently since starting it right?

 

Hi people. Im brand new to this community.I stumbled across this thread in my search for sp and it has given me the awakening I didn’t realize I needed. Porn induced Hocd has infected my life for the last decade and from what I now understand, I’ve got quite a fight on my hands. Day 1