Red Handed ….

I’m so sick of catching him looking at pornographic pictures. We have cameras all over our home for security and he forgets when he opens his phone them remembers 5-6 pictures in that I will be able to see if I check the cameras… which I always do because he has a major problem.I hate catching him master-bating it is a turn off and makes me feel disgusting. He started counseling and stoped after like 3 sessions. I’m done….

 

He tried for 2-3 sessions then stopped.I honestly don’t think he see’s a problem with his behavior. We are currently sleeping in separate rooms I just can’t even lay next to him right now it hurts too much.We have talked about it until I’m Blue in the face but he just doesn’t really listen.I’m devastated and heart sick.

 

I think a big part of it is he doesn’t have the desire to quit. He admits he is too lazy to want sex when it’s faster and easier to just hand job one out. He likes the reward for the little effort it takes. I just think ultimately I’m going to have to get to a place financially I can just leave. There is no helping someone that doesn’t want the help. I’m learning this slowly.

 

It’s been going on for way too long. I found out about his addiction about 2 years in to our relationship and we were already engaged. I didn’t realize the extent of his problem until we were married.