On having sex with partner

Hey all,

I'm on day 72 of NoFap. So far so good, I don't quite have problems with abstaining to watch porn and the rest is following, so no M which leads to no O as well.

Nevertheless, being in a relationship makes thing a bit different in the battle against PMO. Being in a relationship involves sexuality and it is hard to not do it, especially if you don't confess about your processes and addiction.

I have been able to refrain to have sex for a while when I was in the flatline phase, which is fading with time, at last .

So I had sex a couple of times since the fading of the flatline and I just want to share what's happening to me after that.

The sex itself is now really better since I can achieve erection via only body to body friction, no hands needed and I end up ejaculating at the end of the session that way, which is great.

Last week we had a sex session which ended up with me reaching O three times, once in a coital action, another time while performing a cunnilingus while gf was giving me a handjob and lastly in the shower some 20 minutes later where gf decided to perform another handjob on me.

This day is now quite engraved in my mind as I still feel the benefits of having real exciting sex with my girlfriend rather than PMO'ing. Now, this is at the same time the problem; the day where we had sex, my penis was larger than usual at the flaccid state and this is something I noticed that only occurs when I reach O from an external stimulation (gf). I was quite delighted with such sight and told her that as well.

So now it's been 4 days since then and I can't take off my mind that sex episode, which makes it a bit harder to keep going on because it brought me to the dopamine levels that I was used to reach when I PMOed. Now, my brain is trying to trick me into reaching that level of dopamine, so crazy thoughts are frequent during the day.

Although it's a bit tough, I try to focus on the battle against PMO and remind me that I have to stay strong. So far, I think that this is the hardest episode I had because when I began NoFap, I was fed up with PMOing so it was quite easy to give up on that. Now is different because just thinking about that last sex session makes me horny, this is a whole new dimension to me. So I have to focus, breathe and just think about keep going on and just let it be until I have sex with her again. Not giving in is what lets me have those superb moments with her, this is what I am holding on to right now.

As always: Stay Strong!

Mauro.