OCD and one experience, replay if you can relate or help

Hello,

I have started my nofap yourney (third day) and I want to ask for help and share it with you all.

Have OCD so it’s even harder to quit, for some reason, I think that there is no right T-shirt to wear to start, sounds not normal?
But it’s my mind, I started nofap with t-shirt I selected, but my mind it’s telling me it’s not right one and you can’t quit.

Also, had experience that I can remember and want to talk about this or someone can comment on this.

As I remember I “went for it” and saw a purple light in that moment my brain was on “that” drug when my eyes were closed, is something wrong with me? And as I remember from that day I never say later that.

How are you thinking?

Thanks.

 

No, I never tried ssri’s for OCD and Solve Nerves it’s new for me too, trying to do research.

 

Same as the experience I had with purple light when I experience when I was with that “drug” we know so well… But I try to believe that the brain can forget things, and after a month or so I can sleep well without this memory and create new memories, and forget T-shirt thing too…I trying to believe, because last night it was hard to sleep and be with closed eyes when it’s all dark…

 

I can't say that I can avoid meditation, because when things were better I was meditating nearly daily, or at least 5 days a week, but when things became stable, I thought...It's "enough" for me, and forgot about this good habit, so started again and started meditating.