NoNutNovember into 90-day Reboot

same here it make me unconscioly aware about nofab but notcoming also isnt ok cause it will fuck our mentality when we tried to live alone and loneliness is the biggest trigger one if them

 

Hello again fellow November rebooters. Hold fast and get through this. Thing's I've done at this point to help me:
1. Keep phones out of the bedroom.
2. Exercise. It gives you endorphins that simulate that "I'm special" feeling the beating your meat underdelivers on.
3. SLEEP. Weak and tired minds have no defense.

You will grow and change in this process. Even if streaks are broken, you're building resilience and tolerance. No day is wasted and no path to recovery is perfectly linear.

 

Yes I failed but my goal now is to finish the month clean. I can't fall back into my old habits because I failed a challenge. Every recovery/reboot has to start sometime, so why not right now?

 

Day 8 no PM. It feels like money in the bank.
If I feel stressed or anxious I just look at my day counter and a calm comes over me.

 

Alright boys the challenge is real hah started having urges, but coming in here really is a mind saver, I wanna say thank you, without this knowing we aint doing this alone, it would be harder, I know I say this alot but I truly believe we got this

 

Day 8 hell yeah

 

Hello guys! Just letting you know that I'm in! Starting my day 1 from today.
All the best and keep it going

 

"Do not be false to any man".
Day 9!
I love this. Thank god for this.
A6659

 

Day 9
It's easier for me cause my libido is almost nonexistent
So no urges
No random erections either
Weak morning erections
So don't know how to feel at the moment

 

Day 10, its a struggle but I've found it to be less of a challenge staying busy, keeps your mind occupied

 

Day 11.
Thank god.
I joined a rock climbing gym in my town today. I ll start a beginner introduction class next week.
I'am going running with my dog on a 4 mile trail in the hills above town in an hour.
The absolute tyranny of porn can no longer censor me. Information coming into my daily life is no longer controlled by porn. Today my decisions are not influenced by porn.
Today I understand the truth of what has been going on in my life over the years. The sick narrative that has been protected and hidden by addiction for a very long time has collapsed. The swings and balance of life have calmed.
I turn and face my tyrant. I have a voice.
Everyone needs a voice.

A6659

 

Two weeks free of P and M.
Two days ago I was having a coffee with a gal. She told me she had found an old porn of her and some guy.
She was adamant to show me. She could't find it on her phone. She was on a mission to show me.
I was caught up in the thought of seeing it. But was relieved when she could not.
Later that afternoon I went running. When I got back to my jeep and there was her text, "I found it"!
Before I knew what I was doing, I opened the file. There was a amateur homemade porn on my phone playing out.
I scrolled through the video. It was poorly filmed from the dudes camera. The whole time I pressed the fast forward. As if the faster I looked at it the less effect it will have on me. The whole event took about 10 seconds. I quickly hit stop and delete. I felt nervous what I had just seen. I made sure it was completely deleted from my phone. While all I did was take a quick look, it made me very uncomfortable.
I had a small sense of anxiety. While my intention to M was never in question.
I never got aroused it was a quick glimpse at poison. I worried I damaged my consciousness as I drove home. By time I got home I had calmed down.
I took comfort in the fact that my commitment to NonFap held steady regardless of the small challenge.
A6659

 

Day 15 check in, not gonna lie, there were times were I was gonna give in but forcing myself to do something else to keep the mind occupied helps alot, I mostly go to the gym or go for a walk around the block. We got to find healthy alternative, we can't give in to this, we got this guys

 

Day 17.

 

Day 17.

 

You got this brother, keep fighting

 

Day 18!

 

Day 18! Feeling great!