Nervous About First Time

hey guys, pretty sure i know the answer to this already but just looking for some confirmation.
i was floating around instagram while hungover and feeling pretty down (all three are big triggers) and i ended up looking at posts that had girls kissing and women in bikinis etc. would you count that as a slip up? i managed to stop myself before looking up anything more graphic.

 

yeah i reset my timer. and i hate to admit it, but i ended up looking at straight up porn. i'm really glad i made 63 days, but i really want this to stop. i think i might stop drinking for a while. if i'm ever hungover it's really a dangerous time.

 

hey guys, haven't been on for ages. my counter might take a few hours to update, but i just PMOd for the first time in months. not feeling good about it. i was bored today, started looking at instagram which is a trigger for me. i've got to keep myself busy. i've tried so many times to beat this. i've definitely improved, i PMO way less than i used to, but i want to be totally rid of it. the healthier i am, the better chance i have. i'm going to try and sleep well, eat well and get more exercise. hope everyone who is reading this is doing well.

 

i'm going to try and cut down my internet use as well. i want to get to 90 days. i haven't reached that goal in a long time.

 

i'm disappointed this is still an issue for me. i turned 30 recently, and thought i would be over this by now.
part of my plan is to try and write in here a bit more. i think it helps to keep me motivated. maybe someone will find it useful to read.
when i think i don't have a problem and i'm totally over it, that's when it's danger time. so if i keep writing in here i'm hoping it will remind me that i have a problem, even when i'm totally sure i'm over it.

 

hey, thanks for the reply. all going well at the moment. real busy with study, so i think that's helping. really wanting to get to that 90 days, feeling confident at this stage

 

hi everyone, going well, almost met my first goal of 30 days. pretty stoked. keeping busy is definitely helping. trying to keep out of the house is really helpful too

 

it's been a little tough lately. i was flicking around on TV last night and this mildly provocative show came on. saw some breasts. changed the channel, but could definitely feel the urge to keep watching. i've been looking at instagram a lot recently, which i know i should stop. it's often a gateway for me, where i start to look at slightly titillating things on there and then next minute i'm on to the harder stuff. so maybe i'll go back to my original rule of just looking at instagram on the toilet. anyway, keep going everyone!

 

i'm so close to 90 days! feeling really great having gone this long without any PMO. been seeing a girl and it's going well. sex stuff has been great. good luck everybody!

 

hhmmm i'd say the road is different for everyone. i'm on some mood stabilising medication at the moment, which i think decreased my libido somewhat, so it made it easier i think. having said that, i haven't done that 'hard' thing, i was seeing dating someone and was sleeping with her so that made it easier. i remember when i was really horny the first time i tried to quit i would sometimes drink quite a lot of water before going to sleep in the hope of having a wet dream. maybe that's cheating, but it help ease the tension in a way that didn't make me feel weird