Day 51- Didn't check in yesterday. I went for a mini hike to a local forested area on my own. I had the chance to commune with nature and meditate. I feel super refreshed today.
Day 2! I keep relapsing every couple of days , and then I am so ashamed of myself that I don't want to face anyone . That is Why I have been absent for days. I am afraid to tell anyone that I relapsed. I keep struggling every time I relapse , My will power keeps decreasing and I am afraid I might not be able to continue this relapse shit anymore , that is if I relapse . Which I don't have power to overcome , I am weak :-(
had a erotic dream.. woke up with fluid over me and in my bed... arrggggrr very triggering . but i have not used PMO. May God help us all and may we abide in his love.
I was in your shoes before! I relapsed then I isolated myself from everybody, family and friends I was just ashamed of myself with no self-confidence. Yes you feel weak and powerless but it takes a lot of persistance to get where you wanna go, just keep moving forward every time it happens without focusing on the negative effects!