Hello my new fellow Fapstronauts. I'm addicted to porn. I think I've been addicted since I was at least 12, I'm 23 now. I was aware of pornography before then but I actively pursued porn regularly by that time. It's been a force for most of my life. I've always been a sexual person, but also a progressive. I've always believed in the freedom of all peoples. People should be able to live free and bountiful lives. Injustices towards other people infuriates me, I wish we lived in a better world. My fetish is sexual slavery. I would never engage in non consensual sex and I have never participated in "extreme bdsm" but that's been my choice of porn since as long as I've been sexual. I've for the most part always waited for my partners to make the first move because I'm afraid I'd make them feel uncomfortable. My pornographic experiences were usually about personal boundaries being crossed but of course in real life personal boundaries must be respected. My conflict is between my hypersexual self and everything else that I am. I really hate it. It really depresses me that extreme sexual thoughts go through my mind so often. I have a girlfriend of 1 year and 2 months. I love her and I'm very grateful to have her in my life. She has made my life so much better in so many ways and I hope everyone can experience the same joy she brings me. Porn seriously disruptes our sex life at least from my end. It's very hard for me to climax during sex with her. It makes me feel terrible, I feel like shit for not being sexually exclusive with someone I love so much. We've talked a little bit about my problem when we first dated but not since and it's eating me alive. I need to muster the courage and talk to her about it. I'm scared, but I know she would help me through this. I'm also asking help from a community. Self control with pornography is so hard. Depression has also been a big factor in my life, I think about why I hate my self on the daily. I try to push those thoughts off and I take antidepressants. Some weeks are good some weeks are bad. Feeling sad is why I masturbate so often I suppose. One of the biggest appeals of NoFap is it's secular non religious scientific approach. If I had to identify with any religious philosophy it would be Taoist otherwise it's atheist. I've heard about this place for years and I've always wanted to take this step to take it seriously with a community. If you've made it this far, thank you for listening to part of my story. I'm prepared to take quitting porn seriously.
Welcome and thank you for sharing so openly. I think you have taken a step in the right direction by seeking help. There is so much to learn here and so much to gain from PMO-free life. Congratulations!
Welcome. Sounds like you have a good approach for starting this. Lots of resources both here and around the Internet. You have to find what works for you but this is a good start.
Hey bro i just want you to know your not alone here, we all received the tickets for the roller-coaster.... set up some goals and never give up trying i too am on anti depressants fluxotine capsules 2 a day, do we really need them? or is our life only sad cause of all the porn escalation? i hope one day when we give up porn for good, we wont need these anymore. Good luck my bro
