I think i'm going crazy please help

I wanted to list down things, i facing right now, is just beyond what normal people do... Literally i just want to lock myself in a room, with no technology, so, i won't doubt myself whether it's a relapse again... Things that are normalize but got me triggered whether it is a relapse:

• People dancing crotch dance when they put their hand on penis area, also both gender when standing still, we place our hand on private part area or on butt etc... and especially those thugs people randomly put their hands in pant.
  Doubt in my head " they place their hand pussy & penis what if it's a sexual suggestion " ?
  
  
• Even little kids near my house run naked, back in my mind " They're naked, that's a relapse " please do not take this wrong turn, i'm no pedo... i have a fear of relapse please be understandable
  
  
• Even any shape of form, like if i view it as sexual things like... Banana place between 2 oranges, that's look like a penis, then a weird muntjac deer their strange glands look like pussy etc...

Because of these triggered i unable to concentrate at work and communication, i haven't feel like myself for half months which is crazy... I have so many projects that i unable to finalize it. my main goals is no PMO only besides anything i won't considered relapse or even thought about it... What's I'm describing is not triggered me to do PMO, it's triggered me whether it is a relapse that i did not know. Overall the whole sound really mental ill, i hope anyone understand and please help me, i seriously could not continue living like this... (REPOST cause nobody response)

 

No this is the difference... If I considered all these normal and nothing to worry about relapse... Then when i mentioned these to another sub, they said it could be count as peeking, sexual suggestions etc... which is relapsed.

I went to therapy for my anxiety... They said i need to take care my mental health with gym and getting less stressed. Cause my anxiety really high and out of control. Thanks for your concern

 

Exactly... Recently I count bikini, yoga pants, boob and ass (not nudity) is allow because i saw it everywhere on and off screen, i might just lose my mind one day, i decided to allow all these in my goals, and my anxiety reduce since then.

Also would you mind if i ask how long you been on nofap?

 

so, technically those ad libs even though it sound sexual, i do not have to think it as real porn related, which is not relapse right?

 

sorry for ask repetitive... Because if i don't think, it's relapse, other will... in my mind it's just a song, it has nothing to do with P

 

do u think sort of song like this relapse?

 

Yea... Actually you help me ease most of triggered already, just this song stuff. I think probably nothing left for me to triggered.... Just imagine if you in my shoes listening to a song, of all sudden, the ad libs kinda like moaning sound... How am i not triggered by that

 

No, impossible to get hard on a song lol, It not turning on anymore, it just anxiety main cause, u mentioned, IT the doubt, WHat if this count as relapse etc...

 

yea but what am i suppose to do? avoid every song? to avoid relapse and dopamine rush released?? how come, dopamine rush count as relapse, so technically every hot girls i saw and fantazing giving me that rush, a relapse?