I relapsed to sissy hypno after 8 days , feeling like to die

This is so true, bro. All those dumb videos have these super hot chicks telling you this or that b.s. about yourself. It's their beauty which is primarily arousing, and then that's tied to additional potent emotions of shame and "wrongeness" which boost the dopamine. It gives you a short-term thrill but leaves you with a nasty psychological hangover because it tries to meddle with your thought process at some level. No amount of any of that silliness could ever truly make one change their sexuality, and those folks who really are naturally attracted to the same sex don't need some jackass in a flashing-lights video to convince them they are.

Still, it's very warped material and in the long run can lead to confusion - this is because unlike most porn that presents a particular *situation*, this junk has you experimenting with a different *identity*. Anyway your points are spot-on so just wanted to help the OP understand that there is a way out of this and back to feeling good about himself if he just avoids this stupid stuff.

 

I'll be honest with you. Things will get worse as you heal, but eventually you will cure it.

I have the same problem as you.
The girl who rejected me was my best friend, I confessed my love for her and since then I have been tormented by such thoughts.

Prepare for a long journey. You will have streaks for over 30 days, and then you will relapse for 7.

And so it goes round and round. But you have to know this, that it will be worth it in the end.

What is happening in you now, that two sides of you are facing each other, is coming to a conflict.

One side beats the other. In the beginning it is normal that your weaker side will lose (normal side)

So do not lose hope, you will remember once this period from which you will be born as a new person, you will learn new skills, you will be healthier and you will always improve yourself.

I sympathize with you and I want to tell you that recovery is only possible if you want to, but of course go inside yourself and find the traumas that are holding you back.

Never give up, this is the gift of life to make you a wonderful man.

 

That's an interesting idea. I think I can agree with this. As it seems almost impossible to beat in the beginning You can leave P-fetish addiction. Maybe You'll be able to do it without relapsing, but most us relapsed on our journey. Think of it like training a muscle, before it gets strong you make repetitions to make it stronger. After some time You weight really heavy lifts without any effort

 

Basically yeah, people think they go crazy during this battle, but it's just their addiction is breaking apart. It's like a chain reaction.

Every addiction starts in pain, and ends in pain.

 

I think there are people out there that want to hurt you. They want to hurt us. I don't know why they are motivated to create this content but I won't be their victim. I hope you come to the same conclusion.

 

How you will now ?

 

This is a pretty good description of the mechanism. Femdom in general is hot girl + shock value + emotional screwery.

It gets you going because you're so desensitized to regular porn you need weird stuff thrown in to make you react to it.