I am getting washed away...

That's similar to me. I just work and watch porn mostly. I am too depressed to make the effort to do more.

 

We know that sometimes life just isn't fair with us and there are things that happen suddenly with any sign but, we have to strive and become better people. You said that you don't have motivation to overcome your problems. Go find some reason to quit porn and other bad habits and stick to it. That reason could be that you're still young and you're wasting your life watching unknown girls having sex with unknown men. Let me put it this way: don't you think that watching others having sex is a weird thing? Have you ever thought about the term "voyeurism"? For humans, it's plain and simple not NORMAL watching other HUMANS having sex. Period. Society has taught us that this is normal, that is is that, this is this, etc. but is not normal. Think about it, if it were normal, we wouldn't be here supporting each other to overcome this problem that some people couldn't realize yet they have.
Time is a valuable thing, even more valuable that money because elder don't make the same money that a younger does. Search for reasons to overcome this problem, don't let your problems overcome you, problems give meaning to our lives, and yes, they suck but they will be here with us until we die, we have to live with them and don't let them bother us.