I am depressed. I am angry. I am sad. I will not forgive them.

hollyman · May 9, 2020

Halpherisdusfrey said: ↑

Before Nofap, and losing weight to change both my appearance and inside, i used to be alone, lonely, suicidal. Pp abandoned me, ignored me, treat me like i'm stupid and ugly. But look at me now, try to catch up every day, healthier, work harder. Pp gradually be fine to me. I was rejected and ignored by a boy i had a crush on. Now i just feel he's so selfish... And a lot of bad things in the past i don't forget how pp treat me badly back then. But i have to make peace with it and let it go.
And then, after Nofap, change myself, changed in a good way, I can easily make more connection. It also means i have to work harder, improve myself, keep being healthy, like a track of my life. Though i never forget what they did, cause i was suck in the past, but i was just trying to be nice to pp, but never get accepted. Now i'm okay, feel grateful, feel gratitude, this life i'm so lucky to be here and change it. I open to more friends and accept them into my life if before that they treat me kindly (In the past i don't really accept them, but now, i have to). And i just barely BE GOOD, AND FIRSTLY, BE RIGHT to people, include pp who made me sad and depressed before.
That's a long path of mindset, relentless mindset, struggling. Because why? Everyone has their own condition, circumstance, life of living, background, way of thinking. You can't expect them to change anything. But just learn how to accept this world. And be good, be right to everyone. And create more of your background, and live your live more present, give the best of it. This cruel life, that everything is fleeting. So friends that the ones i want to have, if i don't have much friends, that's fine. But your background, inside strength and knowledge and skill, you can't rely on anyone else but you.
The bottom line, the better your are, the more people surrounding you. The more people surrounding you, maybe you'll have more chance to find good friends who stays. I think that's the story of my life, or anyone else's life. And when you get better, you feel happier, and you're not angry anymore. It's not that you wear an angry or distanced face is good, no, cause i was treated badly because of it. You have to be more open to people, and accept them, and inside, practicing for your inner strength. It's like a circle of life that you never realize. The good you give, the good you take. I mean that life's rule. You barely can't do wrong of that.
So mindset again my friend. You have to work your ass off to change, about your relationships and your work.
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i used to "change" for the sake of other people, like doing exercise just to get approval from other. you know what ? its worn off quickly and so tiring process, we cant please every one expectation.

the one u must pleased is your god, parents, your spouse and yourself and ofc ur brother or and sister

recoome · May 9, 2020

Dont lose yourself for sake of others approval.

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I am depressed. I am angry. I am sad. I will not forgive them.

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