Hubby’s first 90 days

Thank you. It is a bitter sweet moment for me. On one hand it is great to reach this milestone, on the other it is still shameful that my actions and reliance on PMO brought this about. The toughest part was committing to a life free from P. In the beginning even taking a 7 day challenge seemed impossible. Cutting out P and M probably wasn’t going to happen, so I just focused on P. Without P I felt I didn’t need to M, so that naturally followed.

The toughest part was getting through the flatline. Not only was my junk numb, and felt like useless flesh, but my mind was just as apathetic. I know that part was rough, as it felt like we took a step back from sharing feelings and emotions or just being connected with one another. I understand now it is part of the struggle, and a necessary low point in the recovery.

I appreciate you being there with me through it. Pushing to get me to open up when my mind was shut down. Taking the time to listen to me, and support me, when I shared those deepest darkest places I went with my addiction. Most of all I am grateful you are still here with me, sharing intimate moments, being vulnerable with each other, and helping me with my recovery and sharing your burden of betrayal with me so I can also help US heal. I see enough of the struggle from other fapstronauts where their SO doesn’t want or can still be present with their PA through their journey due the betrayal trauma, and I can’t express enough how grateful I am to not only have the opportunity to heal these wounds I’ve created but to seek Comfort in your arms through out this struggle.

Here’s looking forward to the year(s) of NoFap, and the personal and relationship growth that comes from it! I am so happy to be here with you and share this journey with the community!

 

Congratulations for both of you! This is great! Keep that great spirit!! Keep inspiring us!!

 

Not only is it awesome to hit that milestone, but the fact that you are both on these forums is such a great testimony to the rest of us. It is a beautiful picture of the companionship of marriage between a man and a woman. Awesome stuff guys, this post was very encouraging.

 

Congratulations you guys

 

Flippin’ heck you two: stop it, you’re making me cry!

 

Congrats!

 

Congratulations!

 

Congratulations to both of you! You brought happy tears to my eyes!