How I used Meditation to end my addiction...

How do you think about getting rid of home internet and using a dumbphone at home to prevent relapses? I am practicing Vipassana meditation, too, but these relapses made me very difficult to maintain meditation practice

 

Vipassana changed my life. For anyone reading, it takes a lot of courage to sit quietly and observe yourself. I have no doubt though, that it is the way out, not just porn addiction but suffering in its totality. Vipassana helped me deal with a lot of trauma. While sitting quietly I watched the chaos bubble to the surface of my mind, like big burps. It kept coming in waves but I sat very still and explored it with my mind. I searched for the most painful areas to look with inquisitiveness and found that the closer I looked the more it dissolves and disappears. As time went on, I began getting the sense that all the pain I was experiencing was my past coming out in some way. All the fears, anger, guilt, hatred was simply bubbling up and disappearing, wave after wave. I knew also that that pain was not coming back, the relief cannot be explained by words.

It is really quite simple in the end, you can't rely on anything external to yourself to be free from misery. It is all inside and looking at what is happening within yourself, without reacting to it, is the key to your own liberation. You have to open the doors to the kingdom of heaven within. No one else can do it for you. Know thyself. Be happy

 

Even just sitting down and listening to quiet music for a few hours helped a ton. Just sitting down and letting the mind breath and process all the pain.

 

Great post. Could you share your daily practice schedule?

 

You cannot put a schedule on Vipassana. It is done all day everyday from the moment you wake up to the moment you fall asleep. The mind must be aware of its own internal happenings, along with body sensation. The more the mind is exposed to the reality of the present moment without reacting, the mind becomes aware that everything is changing, there is no permanence to anything in the universe including itself, the "me" the "I' As a result of this realisation of impermanence, the mind gives up attachment, naturally and easily. The result of this is that suffering goes away because the root cause of suffering is attachment.

The world has made meditation a game of seeking. We sit to meditate in the hopes of attaining something, which means there is a motive and the mind is rolling in attachment. It's all quite silly really. Vipassana or just being aware of yourself in other words has no motive if it is understood properly. There must be no motive in seeing yourself. This is learning because there is no conclusion. Just see yourself as you are, and naturally the mind will transform itself because it realises how it keeps rolling in misery by sitting on the burning plate of attachment. When this is realised, the mind jumps off the plate and starts living very peacefully and harmoniously.

 

You are correct. I used to have the result craving mindset when I practice Vipassana and still transform it gradually. Actually, I think both formal and informal meditating are valuable and important equally.

 

I can speak highly for meditation. It has been transformational for me. Having it as a daily practice, can just be a few minutes to start with, is an incredibly powerful way to understand and take charge over the mind.