How can I improve myself after all of the issues I have had with women?

The past no longer matters, learn from it, but it doesn't define you. All that matters is right now, and that is the only time we can do anything. So what can you do right now that will transform your entire ego? NoFap, become an athlete, learning to love (yourself and others), become a musician, become a survivalist, self defender, suave public speaker, embracer of challenge, etc. All this is possible right now, you just gotta identify with it and alter your habits.

My advice on your woman thing is just try again, but if you want to push it further make sure they are without a doubt on the same page. Like I think its totally okay that that lady said no to your sexual advances. I sat down with my fiance when we were first dating and said "You need to let me know when YOU'RE ready to bring things to the next level because I refuse to put that kind of pressure on you, I want to be with you cause you're awesome not because I may get a pp tickle."

Hope that helps

Aut Invenium Viat Aut Facium

 

Maybe you were just rushing things way too quickly?

 

You're an athlete as soon as you start taking lifting seriously. You're a musician as soon as you dedicate yourself to practice. You are a self defender as soon as you start taking the steps to better defend yourself. You're a lover as soon as you shift your perspective and realize that everyone should be loved (doesn't mean you're a hippy pushover). Once you say "Okay the im going to be a musician, then you make practice once a day or week a habit that you'll never fail. Same thing with lifting, self defending, surviving. Loving a challenge all comes down to the mindset. And thats what makes you a badass capable of anything you set your mind too.
Its that simple, just pour your all into your systems/goals and love the journey of the challenge.
Personally, I saw my life transform as soon as I sat down and decided to prove that negative inner voice wrong because I knew it would be a massive challenge.
Confidence is gained by doing things you never thought you could do before.

 

There’s a relationship model of love languages.

https://www.5lovelanguages.com/quizzes/love-language

It seems what you’re looking for in a relationship isn’t matching up with the women you’re meeting, and vice-versa.

As for being a potential sexual predator…

It could be your love language is physical touch. And there are girls out there craving for that too. That doesn’t mean they’re a bunch of nymphomaniacs or that you’re a potential sexual predator.

Some people (if not all) crave for physical touch since birth, and is the primary expression of love from their parents, which can be very healthy.

Now in this hypersexualized world, everything is interpreted as sexual. Even Doritos are sexualized.

As for improving yourself…

Do more fun stuff in your life, that you can have in common with, and share experiences with other women:

Running, yoga, sports, swing or ballroom dancing, playing musical instruments, singing, gardening, cooking, being a foodie, volunteering in non-profit organizations important to you, dog shelters, etc.

Up to you.

Hope that helps.

 

There’s a bunch of tests out there:

https://www.idrlabs.com/psychopathy-spectrum/test.php

https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/psychopathy-quiz

https://www.psycom.net/antisocial-personality-disorder-sociopath-test/

 

That explains your actions.

And that’s why we’re here at NoFap to work on that.

Hope that helps.

 

I'd like to stress what helped me: It's not a fight, it's evasion. This is a problem you can run from and do so successfully. You're here to escape, not fight, because fighting it only ensnares you, like quicksand.

 

Exercising self-control to strengthen your willpower:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/self-control

Impulsivity also declines as you get older:

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/18999337/

Hope that helps.

 

My point is you've got to sever your connection to it ASAP. Trying to ween yourself off of it is fighting it, when you should be dropping the habit like hot toxic waste and not even entertaining the thought of it again.