Having a crush for 3 years - This needs to stop

Yeah i know it is hard to find both but u have to stay patient

 

Pluto, i had crush on gir

 

Pluto, I had crush on a girl in school. She became my friend and nothing more than that.Then we went to different colleges and she took engineering as her University graduation course. I never had interest in engineering,but I took it so that I remain atleast equal to her.I suffered and fsaled too coz of lack of interest.I regret that decision.She doesn't even ccare for my existance.I wanted to do something big in life just so that she starts noticing me which put extra pressure on me.Regret it.You wont believe, but it weng for like 10 years and all I cared about getting a chance to talk to her,impress her etc.Now since I got to know tjat she is getting married, I felt very bad but may b now this would bring me close r to myself where I will know my own choices for my life rather than choosing somethung that can impress a girl.

 

Hey there my friend @Pluto This sucks...I don't need to tell you that. I'm no expert but, couple of things I'd say...

You mention OCD - has this been clinically diagnosed? Real OCD is an anxiety disorder caused by a neurological brain-chemistry imbalance. Read this and if it sounds likely, seek professional advice:

http://www.mind.org.uk/information-...sessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/#.WPWct4HTWEc

Alternatively, and more likely, you may have some form of psychological love addiction. Something similar took over my life for 5 years too - self diagnosed - which became very self destructive. Do you recognise any of these characteristics:

http://www.slaauk.org/is-slaa-for-me/characteristics-of-sex-and-love-addiction/

Good news is, whatever the cause, you can overcome this. It depends how seriously this is affecting your life, but I'd say the most effective way is to seek medical advice, counselling, or at least try SLAA where you can meet and share with others - they have books too if that's easier. It's far more difficult to tackle this alone.

Good luck buddy and always be kind to yourself. With love.

 

The feels on this post are too damn high. This kind of shit sucks and I kinda know what that feels like. That gut wrenching emptiness on the inside where you just keep simulating conversations and interactions that will never be.