Hello everyone. I am new to this website and am here for the same reason as virtually everyone else: to quite porn. Although I first started fapping when I was very young, my addiction started at the age of just 13; when a classmate of mine gave me a USB flash drive filled with 2GB of porn. I was hooked almost immediately; I had nearly 100 scenes of pornography and I hadn't even discovered the internet porn (yet). At first I would masturbate a few times a week, then once everyday. Then I reached a point where just one scene of porn wasn't enough for me to get off; so I would have to a watch few scenes to get off every day. For about 3-4 years now I have reached a point where I have to watch nearly 10-15 scenes a day and fap about 3 times a day!!! I'll be 22 years old in a few months and I have never slept with a any girl more than once (only 3 girls). In fact, unless a girl is dressed like a pornstar, I normally don't find her desirable! I've reached a point where in the past year or so my grades have dropped, I have very few meaningful relationships, I have no motivation to do anything unless I am obliged to do it, and the list goes on and on. Since things have gotten worse as my addiction to porn increased, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that pornography is the primary reason for my struggles. I'm very sorry for the long message, but I just needed a place to tell people all of this. I hope that I have found a good community with people who share or have shared my problems. I seem like an extreme case (I think), but I really want and need to quite my pornography addiction.
Hi. Welcome to forum! Make sure you create a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation. I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges and triggers. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain. It is a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body. Check out this Ted talk, it gives a good idea of what's it about when it comes to philosophy. As far as practical side of it there is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations to get you started. Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!
