First post after decades of struggle - will appreciate help

Hello. I am 30yo male, happily married.

I am addicted to porn since I remember myself.

I consider myself as having a really really high sex drive.

I tried to quit porn several times, but never succeeded for long time.

The only time I did succeed to quit porn and masturbation, was during a long trip in an exotic country where I met and had sex with a lot of beautiful girls. I really enjoyed meeting girls, from multiple aspects.

I keep fantasizing about that long trip in the past.

Now that I am married, that urges transforms to porn and masturbation.

I feel that it keeps exacerbating. I desire other women, more and more, everywhere I see them.

If anyone has experience with it:

(1) How do you consider the relationship between desire for other women and porn?

(2) Did NoFap increased your appreciation of life & current relationship / marriage?

(3) How do you allow yourself to "miss" other beautiful girls outside of your relationship? Don't you feel you are missing-out?

(4) Is it possible to stop being so obsessed with this topic?
I sometimes think that my life would be much easier if I didn't have any sexual drive.

Will really appreciate comments & thoughts. Thanks!

I will try to start NoFap again, but currently I am a bit pessimistic.