I've been on nofap for 16 days now but the thoughts of sexual/fetish stuff are there on the the forefront. If I see a girl, I'll start having Spoiler cuck thoughts/feelings . And it interferes with my desire to be the one to mate. Or for example I just saw a video of an old man and a young girl who could've been his daughter but nothing sexual, it was a very sweet video about her helping him. But my brain turned it into something very perverted and twisted. It fucking sucks, where is my innocence. Will this ever go away? Will I be normal again? Is this a natural part of my being? I'm especially worried about the Spoiler cuck feelings/images that pop up in my head whenever I get attracted to a female. I'm trying to ignore it but it makes me suicidal, makes me never even want to have a gf or a partner Incase I start desiring this shit for real. Fuck, its so stupid, should've never fallen so hard down the rabbit hole of pron.
Hey, This F*cking addiction can distract anyone to insanity. Can I say that if you seriously are considering suicide, please phone the suicide hotline. In the United States, it's a three-digit number 988 and the works nation-wide. I can relate to your despair over fetishes. I understand. Once down that hole, it's like the fetishes find me. It's all one innocent click from on thing to another. If you have failed at trying to out smart porn, why not admit that porn is smarter and stay away from it? I'm not good at putting time together yet. Working on day four - and, it's going okay. SSR
